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home is indeed where the heart is

2011-11-12T10:17:00.001+08:00

Winanga-Li! [I just found out from my college that this word means "memories" in a aboriginal term.]

Between 21 to 23 days, I'd be in my sweet smelling hometown, Kuching! I remember how I'd used to dislike being there for like, my whole life and that there is not many place to go unlike BIG BIG cities in other places. Little did I realise, now.. that other places may be awesome, heaps of excitements and delicious food, nothing beats being home. Being away from home makes me appreciate it more. Come to think of it, it's kind of true about what 'they' say, "You will not appreciate something or even someone until you lose them." Somewhat true..

Anyway, I need to get back on my books. Can't wait for my finals to be over.. then, I'll be back for more updates and of course, new layouts. [I've got a few designs up for editing and hopefully it'll turn out superfantabulous! that is if I don't delay it for much longer.]
TATA!

when it's festive season, you'll see that cat in a festive outfit as well!

Maslow, the psychologist!

2011-10-03T15:57:00.010+08:00

Halfway through college... well, actually.. its nearly the END of college. That was FAST!I've learned quite a lot, i must say especially with my favourite subject! Psychology! Thinking of being a psychologist? I don't know yet...BUT anywho, before I go on to procrastinating (which I really need to stop doing)... ON psychology:

Little note : I've decided that I'd use my blog for a GOOD cause for myself for the time being at least til my finals are over[which is in only 4 weeks time..whoohoo!]. Who knows, my blog would also be of good use to someone out there [educational purpose, perhaps] =D

First off, I realised that according to Maslow's theory of hierarchy of needs, I still need to achieve self- actualisation. What's that? Basically, there's 8 stages, of which is divided into 2 areas of needs: deficiency needs and growth needs. The image shown below is roughly how the hierarchy should look like.

Maslow had a previous initial concetualisation which only include one growth. As can be seen, Maslow states that every human being should aim for 'peak experiences' where we feel at one with the universe and to go beyond limitations of ourselves. Hence, under the deficiency needs, it consists of psychological needs, safety needs, belonging and love, and self-esteem.

PSYSIOLOGICAL NEEDS : hunger, thirst and generally maintaining our well-being is the most important in order to live

SAFETY AND SECURITY : needs such as putting roof over our heads and keeping ourselves from harm and danger.
BELONGING AND LOVE : the feeling of being accepted by others and to develop close relationships.
ESTEEM : To have respect from others which involves being competent, gaining approval and recognition.

At higher level, upon fulfilling the deficiency needs, one would need to achieve and strive towards the growth needs which consists of understanding, aesthetic, self-actualisation and transcendence.

UNDERSTANDING : the need to know and understand

AESTHETIC : the need for aesthetic beauty

SELF-ACTUALISATION : Realising one's own potential, embrace the realities of the world (including themselves) rather than avoiding them. This also includes being creative, interested in solving problems, judge others without prejudiceand generally appreciate life.

TRANSCENDENCE : After achieving self-actualisation, a person can then try to achieve transcendence which is to help others to achieve their full potential.

interesting, no? That Maslow came up with such hierarchy which is somehow of 'general' thinking but somewhat, unique and of his own prespective whereby his theory is based on his statement that every human nature is good as every person's goal is to self-actualise and transcendence. Thus, this also shows the limitation of the theory. Maslow's theory is too focused only on a healthy personality resulting in assumption that everyone is good and does not take into consideration of any bad behaviour. In relation to that, the theory seems to be stagnant and stable over time and situation which also means that everyone's personality does not develop or even change through the years? . . . . something to think about.

That's all for Maslow's theory! :)

*All information has been revised and summarized through SAM psychology textbook and lecture notes based on HUMANISTIC conception of personality.

TATA~

A okay

2011-04-30T15:57:00.001+08:00

all you can do is smile and Thank Him for every single day.

a change, not for once but always

2011-03-14T20:05:00.003+08:00

HI there, you gorgeous! yes YOU, gorgeous page! I miss you, bloggyyy!! xD

It's been exactly one month and five days since that day when I had to leave most things behind me. Not to mention, my comfort zone, my little 'heaven' and for lack of better words, my safe shelter, althogether. I know, i've been strong but lately, i know i've been stumbling as well.

Even before I could learn to walk, i'm already running. :'(

That's how I'm feeling right now.

There's no turning back. No place where I could hide anymore. ~~Maybe, in times like this, death seems more like a peaceful place.~~ Then again, where's the adventure??
So far, college has been GREAT. I'd never thought it could be real fun as what others have told me. Now that i've experienced it for myself, indeed... It's one HEAVEN of an awesome ride!! New friends that I've met so far are only part of those few whom I'm going to meet soon. =)
I have to admit that yes, i've gotten into trouble and I am tired of having to go through it over and over again BUT through all the trouble and mistakes, I learned and not tired of learning still.
Through every mistakes, I will change and I will never be the same as I was yesterday. I change and I accept every downfall.

I'd never thought i'd take addmaths after high school but here I am, sitting here, enjoying my college maths work which is no difference than addmaths back then.

TO MY LOVELY LIL BROTHA,back home :

No matter what they may say,
I know you sing well, you always do!!
I admire you for the courage you have to even sing a duet piece on stage.
(to me, the stage has always been a place when there's so much freedom. Now that drama is no longer what i can do in college, I do miss performing.)
I don't say it JUST because you're my brother but it's true! I wish I could be there,cheering you on and watching you perform but well, you know I'd love to be there.
As I'm typing this, you know whats been going on in my mind?
You.. OH how i miss talking craps and disturbing you! Actually, it's much more than that, I miss how you'd know when i'm down and come listen to me even when you don't want to. You've always been like that. Nearly, always more than just my younger brother to me - more like a best friend. It just isn't the same here. Anyway, don't feel frustrated with anything, alright? and by the way, PLEASE do call me sometime.

Also, Nana, I miss your talkativeness.xD

with much love,
your sister,Cella.

Tata~
as much as i miss you, bloggy, i can't promise when exactly will i be updating anytime soon.

at cross roads

2011-01-25T23:15:00.002+08:00

Gary.
A short,chubby kid, flushed with pink cheeks almost like a little girl's. He's not like many. In fact, he's always had a maturity that was not really what most people would aspect of him.[Well,that's another story.]
This year, he's turning 18.
One afternoon, he was lying on his bed, thinking that as soon as he step out of the house, he know it'll never be the same again. It never occured to him that this day would come when all this while, this day seems to take forever.
And then it hit him that he was going to have to make a decision that would somehow shape his whole future ahead of him.
Though, he always tell himself,"it's all about the risk."
But at this point, he is not even sure anymore if the risk he is about to take is going to be worth it. Too much- this is too much for him, he thought to himself again and again.
See, Gary has always been afraid to stand up for himself or even to speak to anyone for that matter. In short, he was a shy boy. Now, all that is going to have to change for Gary since turning 18 would mean turning into an adult. He would have to leave home and he knows that he is going further and even further away when the time comes.
His friends? Well, he don't have much to keep in touch with. Mostly, aquaintances you would say. He realizes, he's alone now. He has always been but the fact that worldly things kept taking charge of him, he never did. Hence, he should be able to handle this, he thought again. He should have gotten used to being alone a long time ago. One thing led to another and his thinking became more like confusions and deeper longing of wanting to know what's next.
Still in his mind, he got up and went to sit near the window, looking up into the sky from the balcony. He closed his eyes and inhaled the fresh scent of his mother's freshly planted flowers outside in the garden. This moment- is a moment that he'll never give back. He tilted his head to the side and looked back up. If he could have one chance of being able to see the future, he know he wouldn't because he wanted to keep that as a surprise, whether or not it's bad or good. IT IS going to be worth the risk, indeed. Then, he smiled.

So, what's next for me? I'll have to find out own my own.
As been said, A man determines his own battle. I have mine.

counting down

2010-12-21T13:21:00.001+08:00

5 more days ~

MERRY CHRISTMAS and a HAPPY NEW YEAR!

it's official

2010-12-16T21:41:00.003+08:00

hoorahhh!!! I, now declare myself as an official school leaver. Bible knowledge paper was goood!At least, I think I did well. :)

Today marks the day
that I wear that old blue dress.
With my hair tied up in a ponytail;

and walking through that rocky pathway.

Time.

surely does past by so quickly.

The smell of thin air, of that old wooden tables and chairs.

After exactly five years being there,

maybe not entirely at the same place..

different backgrounds and cultures,

but both brings that kind of the same adventure- ones I would never forget.

tata

flashback to november

2010-12-11T00:30:00.007+08:00

NOVEMBER!

Supposingly MY month. ;) BUT as you all know, spm... *pffft...spoiler!*
Then again, it wasn't all bad. Dad and mum brought the whole family for a japanese dinner during my bday and it was goood...

My mum and her little act for the night.

I can tell you, the food was awesome... absolutely mesmerising.

Moving on, my preparation for exams..

maths? yesss

It's those words that I see nearly every morning when I sit at the patio and it's those words that gives me an assurance in all that I do.

At the end of the day, I find that spm or any other exams aren't everything. Yes, I may need to work hard and achieve the very best but it all comes down to whether I really want to do it.

"its not how good you are, it's how good you want to be."- Paul Arden.

Some say, SPM is just the beginning. Soon, I'll find out how true that is.

DECEMBER!!

everyone knows, it's the holiday season and well, celebrating HIS birthday - my lover,friend and saviour, Jesus. :)
Nevertheless, this year's Christmas season is coming so fast. I sooo miss caroling. Thinking of the joyous moments and singing carols from one house to another, looking at those smiling faces,laughters and so much more. ahh, the thought.

then again, december just started . . .

helloooooo

2010-12-06T23:43:00.003+08:00

Sooo, spm nearly over... now what?
Never thought of how it's going to be but now that i'm finally reaching this point of a life where decisions, both good and bad is bound to be made, I have no idea what step to take next. [Dad in heaven, bless me!]

phewwwwww

I don't want to think about the papers. It frustrates me just thinking of how many careless mistakes i've made. It frustrates me more that only the last few seconds before handing in my paper, then I remember certain things but as soon as I wanted to erase my answers, RINGGG!! too late. As the saying of a peribahasa goes,'nasi sudah menjadi bubur.' Direct translate, 'rice has become porridge.'
Indeed, if you ask me how was spm? I'd say it has been going well. How well? Hard to say. For now, lets just all sit back,relax and wait for the nerve-wrecking day, next year.

It has really been a while since I've written anything in here. I'm a bit shaky for now to type and I'll update more, hopefully. *blow dusts off blog* :D

My holiday list:

get through with violin and bible knowledge exam.
go swim.
find a part-time job. [a kindy teacher, perhaps?teehee]
sing.
dance.
movie-marathon.
go someplace quiet.
write a song.
hang out with grandma.
do something extraordinary

etc...

I'm in a race with myself. Though there is so much that I have in mind to do a lot of things and to get it done as fast as I can, I know I couldn't posssibly be able to do it all in a, I'd say a short period of time because these things that I want to do would take a whole lifetime to accomplish. That also means, it takes commitment and patience. Starting today, I am challenging myself to accomplish just what I want to achieve and to do it without regrets.

Treat your coins right

2010-08-27T19:19:00.005+08:00

coins....

Often, I'd see coins in the drain, in the toilet bowl, on the floor, hmmm.. where else?Where's the justice for coins? Doesn't a coin mean any value? 5 cents,10 cents, 20 cents, you name it... They all have value. Come to think of it, wouldn't it be great if ...let's say,one bowl of one of our kuching's famous dish, LAKSA costs just about 50 cents or less? =)
Anyway, the other day, I realised just how much we can collect coins,in at least a year. My mum decided to clear some coins out from our vase of coins. [yes, we put our coins in a vase.] And guess what, we've collected about RM500 plus. It's quite a lot for coins. So, treat your coins right~

Last month, our school's ycs had an outing, held at my mum's village! ....it was AWESOME. You can tell by all those smiles in the pictures below... Had a lot of planning and it was all worth it.

our ex mr and miss president :)

YCS greenians doing the chicken dance

Well, there you have it. It's outing like this that gives so much laughter and friendship although it was only a day.
As the saying goes, we only appreciate things that remain shortly but do we appreciate things in the long run?

Tata~

smilin' to my ears

2010-08-26T16:35:00.004+08:00

I'm back! for now....

goshh,i miss blogging. Back few weeks ago, I've nearly run out of excuses for reasons to blog.. when suddenly it hit me that blogging is one or another, connecting. YES, a form of a modern communication. OH, talk about blogging, my english essay paper last week was about 'The advantage of blogging as communication'. Not to toot my own horns but I THINK I wrote it quite well. I have problem with one thing and one thing only.. TIME.
Somehow, there's always not enough time for me to finish before time. In fact, there is but I need improve on time management. any suggestions? feel free to drop me an e-mail. ;D

I'm now officially done with mock ONE! Next up, MOCK TWO. *imexciteeed!*

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i'll update more soon! Tata!

On writing essays

2010-07-24T22:37:00.006+08:00

I NEED ideas, inspiration, creative storyline to write story essays! Gahh... Especially during exams. I really need to be able to think of points spontaniously. I've noticed that all this while whether or not during exams, I've ONLY been writing facts. Facts,facts and more facts. Frequently, I'd always play it safe and not try different topics. Anyway, as i was googling around, I found this... I think it does help, a bit. =)

click here, IF and only if you're up for reading~ or here!

Tick tock tick tock... gosh. Its nearly coming to the end of the year. Everytime, .... YES, EVERYTIME when it's the second semester of school, time go by extra fast, considering there are LOADS to do as well. I have to say my schedule is really pack towards the end of the year ESPECIALLY this year. My bloggy, I just might abandon you again... Then again, to all you readers out there [if there are any], if you see me around, feel free to hit me on my shoulders and say, 'WEI! Update your blog!'

~~ma teachas are really drillin us form 5's, at the same time, killin' us from the inside.~~

I have the sudden urge to do this right now....

I am really,seriously freaking out!
FREAK out!!
I am scared.
S
C
A
R
E
D
People say it's one in a lifetime thing and I MUST get it right or it'll affect everything.
S
T
R
E
S
S
N
E
S
S
think i'm gonna be sick.
late-nights
early mornings
Homeworks,homeworks
moree homeworks...

and all that I can list down,which I am not going to do it.

Looking on the brighter side of things~

YAY!!
I am soo excited!
I am finally going to go through what others have.
I am going to do good.
I am soo healthy, I can fly!
early nights
still, early mornings
homeworks, homeworks... ALL done!
I can do this!

[things can go smoothly and easy if you want it to be; after all, whoever says life is easy? - unknown]

I am His creation, and I am made perfect in his eyes.

2010-07-17T21:26:00.002+08:00

Last week, my English teacher,Mdm Theresa, out of randomness told the whole class about this article that she read. It goes a bit like this,
Once, in this particular town, there was this priest. He's always in the church and have been wanting to go out and see the town. Then, one day, since a priest at that time weren't allowed to be seen outside of church, a driver was assigned to drive him around. And, off they went. While in the car, the priest was enjoying himself but that wasn't enough. After that, he asked the driver if he could drive the car. But, the driver resisted because he might lose his job if he do so. However, the priest insisted. Since, the driver realised that there was no one around who could find out, so he let the priest to drive while him, sitting at the back seat. Then, off they went again only this time, the priest is driving. The priest havn't been driving for quite a long time since he became a priest. And so, he was actually driving past the limits. Few minutes later, a police car came and started chasing them behind. After that, the priest had to pull over. When the police went to check and saw the priest, they quickly made a phone call to the headquarters, saying that they have an urgent report.
Then, the officer on the other line answered,' yes, what is it?'
The police replied,'This is very urgent. We can't give a ticket to this driver because there is someone important inside.'
The officer answered again,'hmm...the president?'
'No, its not.' said the police.
'A celebrity?' asked the officer.
'No,sir, its not.' replied the police.
'A priest?' asked the officer again.
'No, someone more important! I think its God because a priest is driving in front.'

At that point, the whole class burst into laughters because the ending wasn't a predictable one.

during wco :)

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A week ago, I discovered something interesting! ...at least to me,that is.. My siblings and I were hungry for eggs and well, we found this after cracking few eggs... one of it has TWO yolks! which means TWINS! haha.See those two small ones there?

by the way, those eggs were yumm... ;)

TaTa

sweet sunday

2010-07-12T20:36:00.003+08:00

During evening mass yesterday at St.Peter, it was GREAT! Havn't been experiencing so much joy in mass for quite sometime. Well, probably cause I havn't been able to pay close attention while the usual mass is going on. YES, i admit I don't. Anyway, Fr. Terriburke [if that's how his name is spelt. >.< pardon me.] was celebrating the mass. While he was giving his sermon, it striked me of all the things that he mentioned. It goes a bit like this,

There was a woman who went for confession few weeks ago.. She came in and well, confessed. One of the things that she said was, '..... I havn't been going to mass because I had to undergo a surgery.'
I understand that she had missed a mass in that week because of her illness but i think, it is rather unneccesary to confess about that. Why? Take for example, a guy come up to a priest and say,'I'm sorry I did not go for mass because I had to help bring one of my relatives to the hospital.' When you think about it, what that guy actually mean is that he is sorry that he was forced to miss mass because he was doing a good deed. Now, something here has gone wrong somewhere.
Since when is doing good, BAD? right?
Often, we all think that we need to be good in all the things that we do in order to be accepted by others. Thing is, what does it mean by being a good girl or a good boy?

And there was another thing that Fr.Terriburke mentioned as well. It's about the story of the Jewish man who was travelling and the good samaritan. As you know, Jewish and Samaritans do not exactly see eye to eye with each other. But in here, it shows that the Samaritan is willing to help no matter what the condition is. In fact, the Samaritan had a choice to just walk away.[Actual text in Luke 10:29-37]

Is it about pleasing others? or being true to yourself and to God? or being good not because you are force to?

And so, i'll leave it all to you to decide, my dear friends . . .

I guess, not being able to pay attention during mass is something that I fail to do most of the time. Therefore, going to mass every week doesn't make me good but a zombie church go-er.

2010-07-09T22:51:00.010+08:00

okay, it has been a while since I updated my blog, isnt it? and it has been a while that I update my blog with pictures, right? SO..... i'm just gonna 're-wind' the past few weeks and probably just mention one or two things that i'm going to be busy within weeks to come.

Some kid in the village. I took this cause this looks kinda authentic, no? =D
granny enjoy playing the gong ;)
Some ritual thingy by the elders of the kampong
nana after the whole trip...Personally, I love this picture. She looked so happy with all the people visiting her house.

I just LOVE taking photos with my brotha!

rice in bamboo sticks,which are best known as 'lemang'During the gawai, my mum did not really celebrated it though but we did went visiting and all.. goshh THE FOOD! Unfortunately, i did not take photos of it. Know why? Cause i was tooo busy enjoying it..
Gosh...Lately, i hate the connection problem.. It has affect me, both physically and mentally. Then again, OH WELL :D

Due to connection problem, I'll re-post those other pictures in here again. [Goshh i need help using dslr and knowing the certain 'techniques'. I was told there are certain angle that needs to be this and that way to get the picture perfect moments.]
Like this? >>>

Somehow, I wish those pictures that I took can move like those in the 'Harry Potter' movies.
Would'nt it be cool, right?

Oh oh! Did I mention? I FELL at school that day. So embarassing! aikss >.<>
Ever since school started after the 3 weeks holiday, my schedule has been, practically packed. Assignments here and there. BUT thank GOD, it's all over now.... whats' left? SIVIKS! gotta do some 'pameran' thing about traditional food. crappy right? i know... =.= Can't wait to get it over with. Lately, not to flatter myself or anything but I have the sudden urge to study, as in doing revision til late at night even. Yes, that doesn't sound like me at all. However, as people say, 'To do something for the better of your life, you ought to sacrifice.'

Halfway round the world, that won't stop me from loving you~

Been a while since I listened to this. I remember I used to listen to this about 7 or 8 years ago and for the fact that I'm listening to it again now, it brings back so much memories and its more meaningful. Ah... good old times.

Tata~!

sunshine

2010-06-22T23:05:00.005+08:00

As soon as the morning dew
..and flashes of glimmering light between the skies;
Beyond the infinite of probability;
At dawn,she'd open her eyes..
Just hoping to see that sunshine,
Of which she knows never fail to stop shining..
As the sun ray flows in through the tiny holes of the window,
Rubbing her eyes she did;
In her thoughts,
Of which led to an introspecting state of mind;
Absolutely nothing can ever visualies such remedy..
nor can anyone or anything subsides that.
Looking out into the sky..
...and down...
Knowing how far;
Way up, nearly taking reality into a dream
Of which she hopes to stay awake if only she could, the day before.
Nonetheless, one day after another,
reality remains reality.
She couldn't hold still.

Then, what if the dark cloud hovering the very reason of total freedom?
what if the rain falls?
On the contrary, she needn't not worry.
'For tomorrow has enough worries of its own.'

Taking a deep breath . . .

Stepping out into the bright morning sunlight,
Cool breeze blew below her feet;
Right there.
Exactly right there, where she stands;
marks the beginning of a new gift.

...Of which she knew she'd be back,
Not counting the days or the time;
But to look forward til it comes.

♥ i know its soon but all this while i know i've got a great gift, just awaiting to be discovered.

judgement.

2010-06-19T15:28:00.003+08:00

Seriously, judging another person can really hurt them. Though, that person might say they're okay but deep down, it's a different story. True, that sometimes it's just a 'no offence' joke but nonetheless, it leaves a mark. Everything that we say or do, does, in fact leaves sort of a stain in us. Many a times, we know it's wrong but along the way, we tend to forget and endlessly repeating it over and over again. 'It's human nature to judge.' you might say. But change can be done. Hard as it may seem, impossible is definitely not the word.

This happened around early last year. I once asked somebody how to spell a particular word, and she replied me, 'I-D-ten-T'. It took me quite a while to understand what she meant while everyone else was happily laughing away, either at what she said or my expression. When I finally got it, I was then straightaway labelled as naive. =.= I'm so not. At least not JUST because of that, right? right? Maybe im just a slow minded person[ i know but it takes a while for my brain to interpret it.] or maybe i am but who cares! It's not all the time,isn't it? Technically, i'm not saying myself in this but i'm just voicing out.. After all, it's a free country. At least, I think it is. Anyway, there are some judgement done by others towards other people that are... bad.
To cut things short, TRY not to judge, please? or else.... [advise to myself as well] =D

Tata~

silent love

2010-06-19T14:02:00.005+08:00

run.........

It may mean running away from something. It may also mean chasing after something. Or perhaps running the distance. But I like it better to think that this particular word resembles a father who would RUN for his son or daughter. It somewhat hit me that a father,who, without any thoughts of uncertainty would just do anything for his child. And then, my mind would wander off back to the story of The Prodigal Son. His father RAN as soon as he saw his son, in spite knowing all the wrongdoings that his son did. He freely accepted him into his arms.
I was thinking, 'man! If it was my father, even if I've done all that and one day, suddenly comes back, instead of running, he'll probably just stand there and give me good scolding.' Then again, I'll never know right? This world is mysterious and nothing is ever that predictable. And so, last night, I came to realise that my father, is in fact, a silent lover. One way or another, he do 'run' after me but in a different way. Ways that I'd never expect or would want but thats okay because all i know is that he did it for me. Most of the time, he'd lecture me about this and that but that's his way of showing that he cares. Therefore, indeed a silent lover he is. =)

SO, this Father's Day, hopefully all you out there make your daddies feel special and that he mean so much! Everyone has a daddy, even for those who may not have an earthly dad. You have, in fact, a Dad who, takes care of you every single minute of everyday...

♥ there is no need to weep for something that you may not have, for all the things you have now is only temporary. I am not saying that you should'nt not weep at all. Rather, I am saying that not all the things that you want may be yours. By saying this, probably someone else needs that something more than you do ♥

i know you may not read this but

. . . Happy Father's Day, Daddy!

less than 21 days

2010-06-04T11:46:00.002+08:00

There is a true story of a little boy whose sister needed a blood tranfusion. The doctor explained that she had the same disease the boy had recovered from two years earlier. Her only chance of recovery was a transfusion from someone who had previously conquered the disease.
Since the two children had the same rare blood type, the boy was an ideal donor.
"would you give your blood to Mary?" the doctor asked.

Johny hesitated. His lower lips starts to tremble. Then he smiled and said, "Sure, for my sister."
Soon the two siblings were wheeled into the hospital room. As the nurse inserted the needle into his arm, Johny's smile faded. He watched the blood flow through the tube.
With the ordeal almost over, Johny's voice, slightly shaky, broke the silence.

"Doctor, when do i die?"
Only then did the doctor realize why Johny had hesitated, why his lips trembled when he agreed to donate his blood. He thought giving his blood to his sister would mean giving up his life. Perhaps, in that brief moment, that little boy has made a great decision indeed.

-this was soo touching that I actually shed few drops of tears while reading it from a book. Even worse my mum saw it and laughed at me. Nevertheless, this story showed me a great sacrifice that a lil boy is willing to make for his younger sister. And that, is a pure, unconditional love.

♥

less than 21 days~ O.o
iamgonnaplay,study,sleep,grow,eat...
Jim brickman, you're my number one pianist that i love listening to !

win or lose? WE had FUN!

2010-05-27T17:51:00.007+08:00

Bl drama 2010...[February]

'...i don't think we can win this year... without the seniors.'

'oh no.... how are we going to write our script this year??'

' Ms.Lydia: Well, what kind of fairytales,stories or movies you all love to read or watch?'

'Abel: OH OH! i know! how about rumplestiltskin gone BAD?'

'. . . .OR the lord of the flies?'
...........

(26th March, mbks)
WE WON!!! gosh..we're so greedy to have won all the categories. Then again, I guess the greatest achievement was winning the best script because our script was written by ourselves and of course, ideas and help from our GORGEOUS teachers.
However, there were some of us who weren't too keen on winning because of SPM this year...~~which includes me~~

After the competition, we all kinda released 'pressure-ness and stress' by playing at the playground.. xD such kiddies....

hmmmm....
I can still remember the time, not long ago when we all first had the idea of writing the script..gosh.. at BING! with Abel, Yong Han, lappy and fooodd...

'ain't no mountain high enough....' (:

doomsweek aint that doom doom after all

2010-05-14T23:36:00.004+08:00

SOOoooo done with EXAMS!

Now me want THIS! >>>>

............hopefully!

HAH! then again, finishing an exam also means, I'd have to prepare myself for another one...

*takes a deep breath*
....i'll get through it.....i always do.. =)
Gosh. I JUST can't help but think I did not do my best for my physics! >.<
Lesson learned : NEVER EVER study at the last minute! In fact, NEVER do it for anything! or it might be too late to even do it...

In some cases, you just have no choice but to do that... Nonetheless, try AVOID it. It really tears you down especially with the load of other subjects lined up as well. Not to mention the really tiring and sleepy eyes that i'm suffering from right now.

i want to go through spm but not form 5

it's only six more months to go.oh noooo...
Ahh well, i'll collect as many precious moments and carved it all in here *points to my heart*

Tata.

2010-05-08T00:20:00.005+08:00

I wish you'd understand,

Perfection would never be in your hand.

Sometimes you'd think you want the best,

The best, would disappoint you nevertheless.

I,myself am stitched together with faults and failures and imperfections,
Only with good intentions.

(credits to Eric's blog on reality)

where did i go wrong?

2010-05-07T23:28:00.003+08:00

Tonight's youth gathering, I missed it. =( Then again, it was a thanksgiving thing for ER2010. (OH! ER was great! I enjoyed the whole night standing alone as in without friends around me but somehow it did not feel like I was. Dodo said it'll be worth to worship Him alone. In fact, it did~!)
Well, i did my own little 'gathering' tonight with myself and Him. It was not much but i'm happy. Not to mention, my music ministry was my laptop. There may not be fancy things like proper music to worship but who says thats gonna stop me? After all, praise and worship can be anywhere,anytime. hee...
It's a month of rosary now. And well, i'm trying to say my own each day(if i do try).

So, what's with my headline? I guess, lately my head is filled with so much stuff, good and bad. Either way, according to daddy in Heaven, it's all worth it....EVERY LITTLE THING is worth it. For example, if you see someone and smile, won't that person think, 'Oo...she's friendly.' or if you see someone and not smile at all, won't that person think,'Gosh, she looks scary!'
To me, there is a difference there, whether to smile or not. It's up to each one's choice. So, lately, i'm just thinking where did i went wrong in all that i did and why things happen the way it did.
As I was thinking, something came to mind and cheered me up a little...

'Sometimes, things just don't go the way you plan because I have already planned it out for you. So,my dear... this is just the first part of it. hold on.. Just wait. I want to show you something more than anything you can ever imagine. Hold on........ Ready? Now, hold my hands as tight as you can, make sure you don't let go, and I want you to run after me.......'

my thoughts : 'But where will we go..? and sigh....how long must I wait??'

'*smiles* Somewhere far.......Be patient, Just hold my hands tight and follow. No matter how far, take a deep breath and lets go!'

Anyway, this two weeks is EXAMSSSSS!! goodness. Hopefully i'll go through it just fine. I know i will. heeee....

I felt so...assured after watching this.ehehe...

til next post~
TaTa!

♥ I'll hold on.
(:

27042008

2010-04-27T22:55:00.003+08:00

At this exact day,
You left us two years ago,
So much has changed since then,
(wish i could still have one more chance to say 'I love you.')
Despite that, i know...we all know, you'll always stay in our hearts.
Gosh , how i remembered when i used to hate it that you always call each of us to massage your back and now we can't anymore.

~ All the grownful things, separation brings
you never let me know it, you never let it show it..
because you loved me and obviously,
There's so much more left to say,
If you were with me today, face to face ~

dear Grandpa...
27.04.10

Everything doesn't last forever
except memories

Memories are like smudged ink that just won't fade away.

it's gonna be MAY soon!

2010-04-22T22:49:00.006+08:00

MAY! in like few more days. [byee April 2010!] good news or bad news? DEPENDS on how you see it. (:
for me, mainly bad.... why? nearer to spm!! >.< for some others, starting college? or maybe getting promoted? or performing in a concert? ...etc. Heck, its just starting a new month but there's so much going on.

Class photoshoot. ~~i look funnnyyyy.~~ in the bus, jocelyn and i were super thirsty and the drink that we were drinking from was our friends' . eheh. desperateness.

after mid term exam, i shall jump like my friend, Edward here.

Somehow, this picture make us look like birds. :)

At the end of the day, we'll all miss our high school moments. Every little things that we do become memories and shall forever be there, whether we like it or not.

TaTa~

saya cinta Kuching.

2010-04-16T20:13:00.004+08:00

what if?? sighh..... my dad just told my sister and I that he might want to do his job at kl because a certain somebody asked him to open a business there. >.<
i love kuching. It may not be a big city like OVER there but its comfortable here. I have just what I need here, not all but just enough. Then again, I know it's not that far from here but still, its across the ocean. So, i'm just thinking what if he does decide to take it. Still no idea about it though.

thisjustprovesthatieasilyworryaboutstuffsthatireallydonhavetoworryabout.i'llsoongetoldfaster!ohnooooo
(if you can read the sentence above, You Are amazing.)

I'm suppose to be studying right now but yeah, i'm taking time off a bit to procrastinate and to let out the whole idea of my dad's work thing. (: and and my mind is not here. gosh. I've been reading and re-reading the same page over again and again... I have really lost my mind.

i get so excited everytime you call,
i get hyper everytime you're near me,
i get lame everytime you get lame,
i get so happy everytime i see you,
so, i'd say 'i'm stuck to you.' you'd say,'i know you are.'
i get sweeter everytime because you are too.

callmelameyouaretoo

i guess i'd better get on with my dear Physics. Tata!
the condition for halogenation is U.V light/rays. heeee... me love chemistry.

sunshine, You shine my cloudy day. or even better, U.V light, you 'U.V my day' (=

2010-04-03T17:51:00.002+08:00

Had family din-din yesterday to celebrate my cousin's grandpa, which is my grandpa's cousin. [it's kinda complicated. And one of the things that I don't really like is that us,children, we need to call each one of the adults. Problem is, I always get mixed up on what to call who. According the chinese custom, it is rude to not call them. so,yeah.... ]
It was really sweet of my cousin to say a short speech to his granddad... it goes like,'although he may be old, but he is like a kid at times because he buys junk food for all of us. That's why we love you, grandpa.'

And here's Lerena~ she cried after her brother bit off this 'carrot-tower'.

I know I haven't been updating much lately. As you all know, cella is trying to resist the temptation of going online often. I'm not if that's working well but I think it is....a bit.

OH! We sent our little bubbles for grooming.. and here's how she look now....

:)

To all brothers n sisters,
HaPpy EASTER!!

His eyes

2010-03-23T23:49:00.005+08:00

As he held my hand, i felt Him.
As he looked into my eyes, i felt Him.
As he spoke, i felt Him.

confession. ~~i killed somebody few days ago~~ Everytime whevener i stepped into the confessional room or even just sitting outside waiting for my turn, the feeling of ,'urgh... so embarassingla wanna tell all my sins.I'm a bad girl! >.< ' is always there. But just now, I was so calm... no nervous-ness or whatsoever. =D One thing that i've ,in a way, learnt today while going for confession is that there is no need to fear or be embarass about, although we may be confessing to a priest but truth behind it is that we're actually facing Him in the confessional room. Just like the story of the Prodigal Son. His father accepted him back although he rebelled against him before. [ okay, now i sound as if i'm preaching. teehee...] Well, I'm just glad and relieved that I skipped my tuition tonight and went for it. OH OH! after exams, i've decided that I'll......................... love addmaths love chemistry love english love bahasa malaysia love physics love maths love moral and most of all, LOVE sejarah. ♥ Let the world be filled with love. ♥ ~To do something or to succeed at something, you have to love doing it~ [not sure how true is this but i'm gonna do an experiment on this.] ~Changing your face isn't gonna make any difference but Facing the change is gonna make so much difference~ -unknown.

ttfn~

Bad day go away, come again ...eh no,if can, never come again.

2010-03-08T22:47:00.006+08:00

I have no idea why but today seems like a bad day i've ever had in a long time. Some may call it ..hmm... 'ahh,its normal' . But for others, who knows me, bad days are like once in a blue moon. For goodness sakes, i don't even feel like smiling right now. gahhh..
This morning when I reached school, everything was still okay. Then, going through the day, so many stuffs has been bothering my head. [to Jocelyn and Joan, i'm sorry you both had to see me being so the EMO today. gosh]
I'll name a few that happen. It all started when a teacher came into my class and called me out. Then, she told me the funds money were all gone. ALL 1K plus gone except rm61 ringgit. [YES, that time my heart crushed and my head started to hurt a lot. And and, i just felt so hopeless.] Before that, which was last saturday, I had already passed the money to the teacher who was suppose to be in-charge of the club. I HAD witness. And so, everyone told me it wasn't my fault. But how can i not help to feel that it was all my fault that it's gone. TOTALLY GONE. I felt so depressed that I could'nt concentrate much today especially with so much mixture of feelings. Guilt, Sad, Angry, Depress and all negative energy filling inside me. BUT, i stayed back today to go see the teachers and they told me, they found where the money is already. I felt soo RELIEVED. GOSH! what a day right?
Even while receiving Sejarah paper today, I was soo soo [no need to mention la.heh.inside story.]
To make things worse, these pair of guys behind me was getting on to my nerves. They talk and talk and talk non-stop. [probably because I was so disturbed that I realize that they're really irritating in some ways.] However, thank God I was still in my cool mode. OH OH, and just now, during tuition, I just keep looking at the time, hoping to get home as soon as possible cause I just totally can't concentrate. See how little stuff can affect my mind. sheessshh, i hate it when that happens. 2 hours of tuition wasted....but i did do my work though. (=

I guess, bad days come and go and same goes with happy days. Gah, i just wish all these hadn't happen at once in a day. IT's KILLING ME to handle it all at a time. Then again, people say things don't just happen because it happen, it happen cause there is a reason behind it. =/
Well then, I guess I really need strength from above to keep strong.
It's kinda late now to actually blog but I'm still not feeling better. So, I thought i'd pour out everything in here. Not everything la but most of it.
One thing that I love bout blogs, papers, journal, diary[not that i keep one] or whatever, is that I can write whatever, whenever,whoever I want in there and just throw all my crappyness in it. AND NOBODY willl say a thing back. Maybe there is but who cares. Its my page, and it's all mine. And you know, it actually works to make myself feel lighter and smilier again.
Just a little story to share with my dear blog here,
when I was still a kid, ~~i STILL am now~~
I used to write all my problems or my day in school or even at home.
For example, I got scolded by my parents. And so, I'd write it on a piece of paper all that i want to say or wish to say it out loud but i can't. After that, I'd re-read what I wrote and tear it all into small pieces. Mind you, IT FELT REALLY GOOD! and I wasn't angry that much anymore. As I grew, I started keeping a journal [NOT a diary] and I'd write down about friends or complain about loads of stuff in it.

Whoa, I did not even realized that i've typed so much in here... hehe

:)
Whatever happens, I'll stay strong. Whatever happens, I'll just close my eyes and tell myself, *starts singing Bob Marley's song* 'Don't worry about a thing, cos' every little thing is gonna be alright...'

Goodnight bloggy~
til then.

Like I am...

2010-02-20T23:02:00.000+08:00

Cousins, uncles, aunties have all gone back kl yesterday. Its always like this. sigh.. once they leave or anyone leave for that matter, there's always this empty feeling. gahh! [it's not like they're not coming back.] Anyway, we gambled yesterday and it was soo FUN!! My lil cousin won the most and he was soo excited that he want to play it over and over again. xD

~~~~~~~~~~

i.seriously.wish.i.could.make.time.slow.down.
A song dedicated to everyone whom I love so much! and those who love me like I am: love it. love all whom i love. (: this song pretty much reflects on daddy God who just loves me unconditionally. He shows it all the time...through others...others like you all.

Lying here with you
I watch you while you sleep
The dawn is closing in
With every breath you breathe

I can feel the change
The change you've made in me
But will I ever see
All the things you see in me

Chorus
When you say that I'm one of a kind
Baby, I don't see it but you believe
That I'm so strong and true, I promise you
I'll try to be that kind of ~~man~~ human =D
Because you love me like I am

When it comes to love
I may not know the rules
But there's one thing I know
My heart belongs to you, just you

(Repeat Chorus)

You show me you love me
With a fire that burns deep inside

(Repeat Chorus Twice)

- I am
I'll never understand
I don't think I'll ever understand
Why you love me
Why you love me just like I am

~♥~end~♥~

cny

2010-02-18T22:49:00.002+08:00

Done with Chinese New Year.... what's next? Chap Goh meh? Anyhow, I guess festive season is nearly the ONLY time we get to be together with our family and relatives. I just wish I could keep EVERYONE with me ALL THE TIME.. Then, I wouldn't have to miss them so much. [i know that's impossible laa] Oh oh, probably, that's why
This year, for mine, it feels different without grandpa around. more quiet, I must say. gosh. I MISS HIM so much! And if I miss him this much, my grandma must miss him so much more. =/

Pictures speaks more than words right? [more on FB] (: Here's some captured memories that I shall forever keep.. I think,someday, I'll print out what I write in here and re-read it when i'm much older. It'll be something that may bring smiles later on...

Pre-CNY + Valentine's Day eve + Uncle's birthday eve + Verne's Birthday = whoaaa!

before......

after.....

2nd Day

OH ya! we gambled too....with muffins or cupcakes,i think... cos' we were too kiasu to use real money. (:

3rd day

When I saw this, i was like 'Oo...are they serving salty eggs??' Then i found out it was jellys. x)

My uncle said that the screen and projector is to save space and money, so he do not need to buy a TV to put in that living room. O.o

I must say my CNY was great. Not to mention increasing of $$$ and also increasing of weight! oh goshh!

I guess probably while looking through those pictures, some may think 'whoaa..these people do takes loads of photos.. >.<'

Vain? yesss! we ALL are.heee

*the connection nowadays so BAD! gahh!* Time is so limited as well. As much as i want to continue blogging, there is always something coming up.
til then~ tata!

c-n-y

2010-02-09T22:14:00.000+08:00

CNY is almost here! =D not to mention Valentine's day! spread the love,people... heeeee
It's been few days now that my family and I had gone shopping and well, preparing for the coming occasion. And gosh, my mum has been busy ordering food and drinks here and there. I think it's a bit too much just for one occasion,no? Anyway,here is my dad, pretending to play starwars with that vegee. =.=
Oh oh! and while we were shopping, there's this lil kid, who looked so tired but so cute! xD I can't help but to take a photo of him. [See, i bet he got VERY tired following his parents shopping]

I.feel.as.if.everybody's.leaving.
=(
okay...i know it's a phase where most people is leaving to further studies and all BUT it's happening so fast! i'm not ready for all that for goodness sakes!!! TIME, please please slow down. For,soon, it'll be my turn.
gosh,i just realised exam is like so soon as well. I have to get my brain, armour, sword and my machine gun ready for it.
Brain = to think. [duh]
Armour = Just to keep it safe.
Sword = To cut-cut and go through shortcuts
Machine Gun = To shoot questions

lame? i know.bear with me, if you readers wanna continue on reading.
p/s: it makes blogging more meaningful that people actually reads what others writes in their blogs.

send it on.

2010-02-03T19:53:00.000+08:00

It's 1 a.m plus!

2010-02-01T00:30:00.000+08:00

Late.

I'm not sure what exactly does it resembles anymore. When I was a kid, late for me was 10 but as I grow older, 10 is wayy too early. I think that probably my latest now is about 2?3? Okay, maybe it's not that bad la. It's not like i'm staying up late for wrong reasons. heck,no! ~~i'm blogging. teehee. Does that count as a bad thing??~~

It's nearly 1.30 now.

I was actually doing chemistry report just now. And finally, now i'm done with it except for results and all laa. ~~such chemistry freak~~ =D OH ya!! I studied Sejarah today!! As much as i find it pointless, I did it! YES!! It all makes sense now bout why those Barat people wanna conquer Asia Tenggara and why most Phillipinos' have kinda cool names. For example: Imelda Marcos, Juan Luna and etc. Anyway, I do wanna go sleep but everytime i put my head down (for tonight only though) , i feel like i have so much to do or i am forgetting something or i'm just missing something or someone. haiya! Let's see:

checked my bag? DONE
pack clothes to go grandma's house? *oh wait* ..DONE
Homeworks? except for maths, though.(oh well, tomorrow no maths) DONE
Say night prayers? SOON.hopefully.
What am I still doing here??? all mostly done already leh.

I'm not sleepy.

Or I think i'm just worried bout my aunt. She's all the way in Tasmania and i'm not exactly sure how she's doing and all. My mom, grandma, uncle,another aunt and all of us here are SO worried. She's all alone there and living in a stranger's house and only heard from her bout once or twice since she left last month. Been missing having her visiting marverne,nana and I during weekends especially. Only coming back end of next month. Gah..why must international calls or text be super expensive. Anyway, I won't wanna say so much la. Later, i'll turn emo instead. I'll save my emo-ness for some other time. xD (not anytime soon,that is)
*I ask of you,daddyGod that you'll guide her through journey there and bring her safe back home. I, We may not be there with her but You are. Amen. OH YEAH. And bless that somebody now that he may resist the temptation of really GOOD food there,so that his 'mission' will not fail. AMEN.*

Come on, Go sleep, Cella!

I guess, i'd probably go sleep now before i turn into a panda tomorrow which reminds me, i'm gonna have to run tomorrow for this 'segak' test thing. >.< I'll stop here for now.

TaTa.

2010-01-30T00:42:00.000+08:00

GOSH.how i loveeeee VINTAGE! =D

oh ya oh ya! Why is Monday so far from Friday but Friday is so near to Monday? x)

Can't believe it's 1 a.m. now and i'm still here.. [*prays* daddyGod, bless my unsleepy soul.]
kay la, signing off now. byeee bloggy!

- Roger and Out! -

updates...finally

2010-01-29T23:01:00.000+08:00

this quote reminds me of stubborn people,somehow. hee

YESSS!!!! friday!! (: ~~so freaking fast! tick..tock...tick tock... SPM!~~

Had first YCS gathering today. awesomeness. There were quite a lot of form 1's,though and i must say we are soo not punctual. It started bout after 12.30. OH, it was so funny how they were all playing this game where they all had to be blind-folded and look for all their group members.(not sure what was it called). Everyone looked so funny!gosh, waiving here and there to each other but ALL of them were blind-folded.[i don't see the point of waiving] and they were shouting like little chickens. xD

Lately there is so much lameness in me. why ah?why oh why? I can, somehow be noisy then quiet. I can crack up lame stuffs. For example: (some words may be changed due to my forgetfulness)

*in the physics lab*
Me: eh, Zul .... kinda cool also right? that those people who thought of definitions and certain phenomenons and some even got their last names as units. *laughs*
Zul: Yea ho... kinda cool also.
Me: OH! then i think right, IF we make a simple definitions, we might even get our own names as units. Then, the future generation will probably learn bout the cellazul's law. and and, the unit is Cz!
Zul: *burst into laughters*[i think I saw him laughed so much til he shed some tears. =.= ]crazy! memang crazy la you!
*the end*

...actually got more la but i think it's too lame to even post it here. ~~can't afford to contaminate my page~~ =D

So, all in all, like that la my crappyness sometimes.

loads more to update since i've abandoned my blog for quite a while. Tata~

2010-01-28T23:38:00.000+08:00

Gonna update soon ,dear blog...when i'm not lazy. (:

2010-01-15T23:18:00.000+08:00

As much as I would love to blog everyday, I can't. why?
reason number one: i'm lazy.
reason number two: my new year's resolution. haha.
reason number three: same as number one and two.

I know it's kinda late right now and what an inappropriate time to go online.BUT, who cares! weekend is here, people! whooo hoo... (: Technically, i just got nothing better to do right now. I went for empowered's first youth gathering just now and it was FUN , as it always is.

School. YAY..... not! then again, gotta enjoy every moment of it since it's my last year. >.<
gahh... homework is piling up day by day. I DO it but it just seems to keep coming. ~~especially add maths!~~ Oh well, not complaining la. Struggle now... and maybe, just maybe... SOMEDAY, i'll RULE the world!! ~~*evil laughs*~~ in my dreams laa........

will continue my post again. =D for now, i'll let my mind to rest. heeee

TaTa~

Phewwww!

2010-01-08T19:40:00.000+08:00

*sigh of relief* I AM SO GLAD SCHOOL IS NOT BAD... it's been a week of school now, of trying to be 'study-nerding'. Can't really say i have fulfill all that I have written for my this year's resolution cause I broke on of it already..[see,I knew I wouldnt last.But, i guess it kinda did helped me cut down.] One way or another, thank YOU to that somebody who has helped me do it for these past few days. xD [*ahem* angel wannabe]
Well, i guess, school has been a lot of fun somehow despite realising that I been kinda behind in some of the subjects. However, i'll catch up soon enough. ~~no I can't!!!~~
I KNOW I CAN!
Lately, I've been reading a book...a self-motivation book. Kinda interesting, though. It's called, 'If You Think You CAN!' by TJ Hoisington. I wasn't much drawn to read it but something made me to cause I have this dilemma which I don't exactly know what to do after I finish school and all. I do have dreams here and there but I JUST can't DECIDE! >.< So far, all those form 5 topics are not bad but who am I to judge now right? There is more to come.

So, til here for now. like I said, There is more to come. (:
I did not have much in mind to blog bout any proper thing. Then again, who says my blog was to blog about PROPER stuffs. =D
So, this was more like just a rant. Just typing bout stuffs that randomly goes through my mind right now. T.A.T.A

birthday girl.two cars.sweet companies.beach.

2010-01-02T21:54:00.000+08:00

before the night strikes 12 midnight, and it shall no longer be 02/01/2010,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, Claudia!
with lotsa HUGss and love!
Glad you enjoyed the trip though, you had to drive. >.<
Have yourself a merry little good year ahead~

HELLO, 2010!

2009-12-31T23:23:00.001+08:00

less than an hour more to go...... til 2009 ends. As much as I don't want it to, still, Goodbye,2009. =( and HELLO, 2010! =) I don't exactly know what's instored for me in the new year but here is my resolution :

pray more.
stay calm when things go wrong or even when things go right.[whatever that means]
be a study nerd. ~~phone and laptop on weekends ONLY~~
stop calling my lil monsters, monsters.
cut down on craving of something to bite when i'm not hungry.
basically, what I have written for my 2009 resolution earlier this year.

hopefully, I don't screw up my 2010 with unecessary worrying and dot dot dot. I know it's SPM year but all work and no play. BOO. However, all play and no work, die die! Gotta keep things in moderate. [SOMEBODY help me!! to keep in balance and not fall so easily. ]
School starts. Bags packed. New year, here i come. >.< *keeps my fingers crossed* I really hope I don't screw this one up.

Well, my parents are out, enjoying now with their masquerade party while my siblings,cousin and I are stuck at home to celebrate the new year. It ain't all bad, actually. My sister, for one is really excited.

Nana: Come on,Steph. LET's PARTAYYY!! and sing karaoke! *jumps up and down and up and down again*
Steph: I have no idea what you're talking about but i'm sure you're saying something.
Me: *interupts* yeah,cause your lips are moving.
.............

So far,we've watched 3 movies in one day. x) Gosh, as i'm typing on this posts, i'm looking at the time, thinking, 'whoaaa....few more minutes.'

alright,TATA for now.
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODY!!!!! xD

have yourself a merry little christmas.......

2009-12-27T22:20:00.000+08:00

Christmas!! (= After years and years of not celebrating here, mum and dad decided to have an open house.

Andrew, playing my 4 string guitar.[E string broke.darn!]

my sistah,Alex came too!

Edwin, my 'celebrity' guitar teacher. =X

CAROLING~
my first time ever! and it was FANTABULOUSO! =D Anyway, those kycs-ers have really made my caroling experience so much more fun. Although, we were kinda exhausted [not to mention the claudia and bryan] Seriously, both of them have been of so much great help especially for driving here and there. Well, now that its over, *criess!* All things have to come to an end,right? *kneels down and start praying.*

'Lord, i thank you for those memories i had with all the people around me. They've been great little angels that you've sent to me. They're all YOU-nique and awesome in their own way. What would i do or where would i be without them...... Through them, indeed, you've shown me YOUR love for me. So, shower them with blessings, and enkindle in them the fire of your love. Also, that I may stand by them when they're in need of my help. All these, I ask through your Son, Jesus Christ. ~~Aman!~~ AMEN!'

Kenny had to leave so soon. [missing you already, Kenny!] oh oh! i shall never ever forget this, 'OH MY LORD!' or OML! =D and you shall forever be our HAWT stuff leader!

signing out for now,
Cella~

2009-12-26T21:36:00.000+08:00

=.= >sometimes,i wonder who invented this. [just a thought out of boredom]

just a rant.

2009-12-26T21:24:00.000+08:00

I've been stuck at home since yesterday. ~~well,im not complaining.heeeee~~ And, i'm suppose to keep my parent's guests and cousins company but i'm just taking a short break now and thought of sitting here, updating my blog. trust me, my blog's kinda dead.

=/ i'm so sorry for abandoning my poor blog for soo many days. think i need to give my blog a new makeover soon.

gosh, i've been eating so much since this morning. [I am seriously asking for an increase of weight.] This is one the things why I dislike big occasions. Anyway, my mum's side cousins[two from aus and the other from england] are here and they're sleeping over tonight since they don't like staying in the kampungs. They say its hot and boring. ~~I understand how they feel.~~ =)

guess i've gotta go already. bye for now,bloggy!

10 years...

2009-12-17T14:54:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, my sweet lil monster!
Sure, we had loads of arguments, crying, shouting at each other for these past 10 years but nevertheless,
I ♥ you, Princess. Just know that, there are little things that you do, which actually made me shed tears but at the end of the day, I realise if weren't for you, I'd never learn to improve and be a good sister. Every night, I'd always have to accompany you to sleep and at times, no matter how much you're angry at me for some things, you still have to call me to keep you accompany...I never get tired of doing it because everytime after you sleep, I'd kiss you on the forehead while you're far away in your sweet dreams...[k,maybe you don't always have sweet dreams cause sometimes,you kick me in the middle of night] Anyhow, you're my little sister and will always be.

xoxo

OH !! and Marverne also helped to prepare the spaghetti. =D

*sniffsniff* she's all grown up! haha. ALL of Nana's friends were awesomely CUTE! gosh. How they love taking photos. So, apparently I joined them too! xP
(i think i got 'high' of too much cuties around)

with ♥ love ♥,
Ah Jie

2009-12-12T23:12:00.000+08:00

Ah......Saturday. (:
Lately, there's not much that i've been up to. Only keeping myself busy with caroling practices and CAROLING time is soon and CHRISTMAS is around the corner and then, 2010 is not that far anymore. Gosh, i'm SOO glad i'd be able to go caroling this year after 16 years in this world. x) hehe
Honestly, I haven't had this much fun and joy for quite a long time especially when i'm with all the ycs-ers. Luckily, I was able to persuade my dear parents to stay here for christmas this year. Though, this would probably mean, next year, no more celebration here again. =.= OH well, i guess i should make the most out of it eh? (=

As I was searching around in youtube for this,

Then, I found this too and,now got myself stuck with this song. gahh!! [i hate that i'm such a YOUtube fan!]

Anyway, so many people was telling me bout this somekind of a new year's party, organised by the Empowered ministry. And their theme,'Blast to the Past' reminds me of all the disco oldie bands like,'The trammps.' [cool!] oh and the big hairs with thick uses of hairsprays. But, i'm still thinking, should I go? >.<

TaTa~

2009-12-07T21:06:00.000+08:00

darnnnn!! flu and now cough?!? I've got 'sexay' voice.... one tone lower voice!!! die die! how to sing?? =/ seriously,coming back from karaoke-ing at 4 a.m in the morning is NOT worth it unless you're with good company.

2009-12-07T18:32:00.000+08:00

[Quotes Marverne, my lil monster: 'I'M SICK OF BEING SICK' =.= ]
I have no idea how many times i've sneeze this whole day. gosh! But thats the least of my problems for now. This wednesday, exam time. oh noooo... Mr.Lee says, i'll need a miracle to prepare for everything perfectly since I just got back from KL. Speaking bout holidays, mine was great! =D ... other than shop,shop,eat,eat and play,play of course.
My allowance for three months... THREE MONTHS is ALL gone. POOOFF! *snaps* just like that. Then again, its once in a blue moon I get to shop like that.
heee~

-Day 1-

was bored. heh.It was raining awfully when we got to my uncle's house.

Ooh! We went to the Chilis.[dunno how to spell it] n had quite a heavy meal. [my poor poor tummy]
K,foood!! yummy?

- Day 2-

Only Day 2 and my lil monster #2 is already feeling real tired.

- Day 3-

We went to sunway lagoon. SOOOOO CLOSE to going scream park but those younger ones didn't dare. OH WELL. what a bummer. Anyway, my bro,cousin and I went into this 360 degree turning game thing, which at first, we thought was only 180 degrees! [note to self: I am never gonna ride on of those things AGAIN!]

Oo.. this was one of those funny moments. My sis and cousin went to play this teacup thingy, which goes round n round n round. But, you can actually control the speed of how the teacup turns. So, my sis n cousin went in. They both had quite a lot of fun the first try. Then, I asked if they want to try other games but they did not want to. So, they went in for 4 more rounds and turned their teacups faster and faster. In the end, they both kinda vomited while walking back.

We were super bored, just waiting for my mum.

All in all, i'm glad to be back cause i've missed out on quite a lot of stuffs while i'm there. Well, i guess there is so much more to look forward to. =D
-Child of love by Sara Groves-

oh Gosh, Jolyn!! [if you're reading this, you got me soo stuck with so many songs!]
One of my favs....... cinderella-steven curtis!

T.a.t.a.

New moon

2009-11-26T22:41:00.000+08:00

DENTISTS. me no likey. >.<
anyway,my check-up today went well. After that, went out to spring at mbo to watch .....guess what ? guess what? NEW MOON!

It was great if you're a twilight fan. And well, I can't exactly say which is better between twilight or new moon, though. (: Recently,i've read and re-read the novels cause ....i think i just have too much free time. OH and about the movie, the part where I most love was when Bella was in the midst of an adrenaline rush just because she wanted to see Edward, knowing that he hates it if she tries to get herself into trouble. It was soo SWEET. well... to me,at least.

Okay,okay.
Edward or Jacob?
___________________
=D
(I'd choose Edward. )

Gosh,there was extremely LOADS of humans there today... and i met so many that I know of.
Then, after the movie,we went to sugarbun for a short break and later on, to some shops. Window shopping! I actually thought of going into any shop and ask the salesperson questions and later just leave without buying anything. But then, I was asked to give those sales people a break. Oh wells. Gosh, I have no idea why I was kinda hyper today..

It was worth going there today,though. heee

That's all for now. Tata!

wrong timing.

2009-11-25T16:23:00.000+08:00

Can't imagine how many times i've been going to music lessons this one whole week...

why?

Exams real soon.blehh =/

Few days ago, i watched this show [i forgot what was it called].Anyhow, it was so Cool! They showed how movie experts do fake movie tricks with the use of cheaper and affordable stuffs. The one that got my attention was their blood making... I tell you, it looked soo real. ><
OH,then I had this idea of trying to make my own fake blood since watching CSI always gives me the 'WHOA' reaction. Unfortunately,it did not turn out that well. My so-called fake blood failed and it was yucks! Will post a picture of it soon [hee.technical difficulties]

My sincere apologies,

I know, lately I haven't been around.

soorrryyyyyyy!!!!

Soo many things and even last minute things coming up. =/

deepest apologies to Dorry, Zera, Mandy and Teresa..
Hope to hang out with you girls when I come back.
And i feel terribly bad that when someone once told me that its gonna be sad that i'm not gonna be there with you all during graduation.

I.am.sorry.very.sorry. =(

So we talked all night about the rest of our lives,
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25?,
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same,
But when we leave this(next) year, [i'm sorry i had to leave you girls,early]
We won't be coming back...
No more hanging out cos we're on a different track.

-Friends Forever(Graduation) by vitamin C-

Despite all these, something has been missing as well.

What's up??

2009-11-22T12:52:00.000+08:00

To start off with,
HAPPY SUNDAY! [maybee not for form 5s.] =]

OKay,now i'm kinda not myself. So, forgive me for my random-ness.

Gahh!

What's up with the weather nowadays?? The clouds keeps 'crying' and making me want to cry too. Well, my mum and I had a short chat yesterday afternoon and she told me she has the same feeling as i do everytime rainy, dark days come.

sheesh

Anyway,

What's up with me recently?? I think i'm getting lamer each day (someone who might be reading this knows why) and and i keep spelling things wrongly or say things randomly. I think i'm seriously going insane. oh nooooo >.< But, amidst all that, i thank God i'm stress-free. At least, i think i am.
And what's up with everytime I ask people, what's up?? Its like nearly everytime people would answer me, 'the sky! or the ceiling! or the roof!' .. goshh... i remember i heard that the first time, i laughed soo badly but now its like only a giggle.

I would love to sit and continue to type longer but i gotta go already for my brother's recital. So......

LaTER, my dear blog... ^-^

COffeeee

2009-11-20T13:48:00.000+08:00

AT STARBUCKS NOW! [with my dear 'son']....yeah,i know lamee...

Ahh, the smell of coffee... (: Was suppose to be studying but yala... holiday mood.

...til the next post~

Studynerd-ness

2009-11-18T15:45:00.000+08:00

You're part of everything by Josh Kelley and You and me by Juwita Suwito... me likey! (:
It has been too much music lately. I guess,probably too much fun. I've been up early this morning and fooling around with my sister's drums [yes,in the morning.Somehow i felt bad for my neighbours but oh weell.] and then, hitting on the piano.
The rest of the time? Thinking... sometime around this time, next year, will be my turn and all the other roosters to sit for SPM. gahh! But then again, I can't wait to get it over with. Recently, I had this thought in mind that i want to try to be a 'study-nerd' next year.
My definition of a study nerd is..

Study.study.study
Pay EXTRA attention in class.Absolutely no talky-talky.
Finish my homework on time.(i never did this year)
Ask more questions if i have to.
Online less. (if can, only during weekends.I seriously hope so.)
Bring History book and read it everytime i go out.

I know...what a boring life. But yeah.
What'd you all think??? *reply in my chatbox<<< please and thank you.*

♥ .Gone insane....back soon =D

Form 5's

2009-11-17T22:55:00.000+08:00

All the BEST to all form 5's tomorrow~ =D

*hugs and love*

Sweet laughters

2009-11-15T20:06:00.000+08:00

Thanks mummy and daddy! I LOVE YOU!

Gosh,i never expected it man!
The day before yesterday:

Remember, remember, the month of november (: I found out i have so many birthday buddies like Natalie and Alysha. hehe.

So, is being 16 really that sweet? i don't know. Maybe it's just a phrase or maybe not. Anyway, that morning, Joan,Jocelyn and I cleaned the class. I must admit it was kinda fun but eeewwww those disgusting windows. We only cleaned one window and the pail of water already turned soo black. my gosh!! After cleaning, we felt kinda good. You know, the kind of feeling of satisfaction after a heavy load.

Okay,that night.....

*drum roll* It was

AWESOME!!!

the company,

GREAT but the circle ain't complete cause some people did not turn up [you know who you are]

Food,

Not bad though i did not take much

Dance,

FANTASTICO!!!!

At first,the dinner was kinda okay but towards the late night, we danced, laughed, and sing like there's no one around.

Even my parents joined in and 'partied' with us.

I thank so much for everyone!![literally everyone] and those wishes ~

made my day so much better.

Love you all!

Pictures speaks more than words

So,here it is.more on facebook (as usual) hehe.

the lovely and gorgeous girls!!

me and uncle Jeff

Yesterday~

REPORT CARD DAY!!! Actually, it went quite okay. But, when my mum and I reached my class,

my class teacher thought that I lied to her. See, she thought that my mum is my BIG sister. xD

Class teacher: Aih,mana mak awak,Marcella?

Me: Inilah mak saya, cikgu.

Class teacher: Biar betul. Nampak macam kakak. Umur berapa? Maaf. Tanya orang umur pula *talks and laughs to herself*

My mum: Umur saya sudah 30 lebih.

Class teacher: OH,sama lah. Tapi,anak saya masih kecik..........

[You know, somehow, I wish that conversation was longer so that they might forget about my report card.]

Then, i went to caroling practice and the rest of the day, I stayed at home. (: Ralph wanted to bring me out for a drink but....well,it was kinda late at night already.

Today~

So glad i'm staying here for christmas this year. It has been a long time since i've celebrated it here. Of course, it's not that i don't enjoy being there, though. I just miss having to put up the christmas tree and decorate the house with christmas 'bling-bling' and waking up on christmas morning, listening to Jingle Bells *day dreaming away~~..*

*this is it for today* [the connection was bad.AGAIN. ]

TAta!! ~

LAST day of school tomorrow.[sads] =(

2009-11-12T23:47:00.000+08:00

*ding!* 13th november! HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY, Brendon!
(if you're reading this) (=

Boring school day of the year

2009-11-12T23:03:00.000+08:00

continuing from the last post..... (:

As usual, today i went to school. Yeah, it was awesomely boring! Only 5 students in my class today and 1 went home after break. man![why didn't I think of that]
Actually I wanted to skip school today but because of my dear Faith Teng, I had to. =.=
During the last period,which was English, our teacher brought us to the school's library. It was fun! not!(me and joan walked down the stairs.well,we kinda danced down the stairs and played with our classmate's helmet. I know its lame but that's what boredom can do to you,seriously)
Even that one helmet can entertain us. my goodness.

Anyway, in the library, I took yesterday's newspaper and i saw an article about Justin Bieber.What a lucky kid,i thought to myself. Not much of his fan but, he's only 15 and writes HIS OWN songs completely. So cool!!!!! you know what?????????
. . . . . . .

Honestly,I can't think of anything to post about right now maybe because my brain ain't functioning well after sleeping quite late last night. So, i'll just randomly type about anything.
hmm~
recently, the song 'Two is better than one' by Boys like Girls and Taylor swift is soo stuck in my head. At first, to me, it sounded like eeww. so cheesy!
It goes...
So maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
And maybe two is better than one .....bla bla...

Then, somehow, the song seem so sweet and just ...i don't know how to explain it in words.ehehe. (someone help me get it out of my mind!)

Guess this is about it for now since tomorrow I still have to go school to return txtbooks. ahh man! I'm gonna have to carry those books all the way up to the top floor.

*ends*

what to do now??

2009-11-10T21:46:00.000+08:00

Will holiday be like this? bored? or should I start studying for form 5?? Looking at those form 5's now makes me soo nervous to sit for SPM next year. So far yet so near. SERIOUSLY. It still feels as if I just started going into form 4, going into a new school and having to restart all over again. gosh. What am i to do??? so dooom. Like a some people might say, 'FACE IT' or toyota's motto: moving forward.

if only...someone save me!~[i wish.]

Sheeesshh. Bryan keeps calling me mum. makes me sound soo old only. =.= Ah wells! [if he ever reads this...... it would be soo cool to see his reaction.]

my post shall be continued....... (:

DANCE!

2009-11-08T12:58:00.000+08:00

"AHh,finally.... this girl updates. eh?" (some of you might say) xD

Okay.my excuses for not been updating~
#1 Drama. In Penang!

We got 3rd place!! not bad though cause we didn't think we'd even made it to top 3. When we got there, the stage and other teams gave us a surprise because we weren't prepared for such a BIG stage and man! ALL the other teams were absolutely FANTABULOUS. I mean their costumes and acting were ....err.... awesome! However, I thank God for Aunty Florida and all our four teachers.

Quote Ms Christine: "what would we do without you guys???"
(:

Anyway, Selangor got 1st place, followed by Sabah being 2nd. It was a great experience and an emotional one too as it was our last performance then. =( [ I'm missing the form 5's already.]
During the whole trip, the funny thing is, everytime when people come to us, our conversation nearly always starts like this:

Other team: Hey, you guys are from sarawak right??
Us: Yeah.
Other team: I see. erm... ... so,you fly here??
Us: *giggles* Duh,Of course.
Other teams: Oh.okay. So, hmm.. most of you don't live in trees do you?
Us: =.= Actually, we all don't.
Other team: Okay. Good to know. *gives us a wide smile*

Gosh. After that conversation, we kind of got paranoid and everytime when anyone comes and talk to us, we put up our hands and say," WE DON'T LIVE IN TREES."
Thinking about it again, it was kinda funny though. But, we DO NOT live in trees and neither do we 'click'. (refering to a friend of mine. You know who you are. xD)

Ooh ooh. While we were in the lobby, there was this wierd hotel guy. We don't know him and he don't know us. Out of the blue, he asked us what's our room number.
Worse part is he also asked us where do we live and our phone numbers. our PHONE NUMBERS! Obviously,we hesitated.
So, we offered to give our emails instead but he doesn't want it. Then,when we ask why does he want our numbers, he said in case next time when he come visit sarawak, he'll want to stay with any 1 us. Sha, Audrey, Yun and I were like... What the heck??!? pretty wierd ain't it? He even asked us to take a photo with him. Goshh.

As for the pichas, i took quite a lot but i'll just put a few here. More on facebook.

Selangor team
before the competition....
Pn. Wong and Pn.Elizabeth
with a dude,all dressed up as a Genie.
me and Nat.
We went shopping at Plaza Gurney!

#2 Examss

I SCREW IT ALL UP.darn. =.= Especially moral. Pointless. ah wells, it's over. All I gotta do now is to face the dooms day. Report Card Day and guess what? It's on my birthday!!!!! Gah!!! Of all the days........why?why?why?
*keeping my fingers cross that my parents won't explode*

1,2,3..... who cares about exams. actually i do but ..argh..who cares!
It's all over now. No use crying over spilled milk right?

So,
D . A . N . C . E . people~
[yes,even all you form 5s. c h i l a x. It ain't good to stress yourself out. (: ]

#3 I'm just too lazy. Even if I'm not, bad internet connection.

That's all for now~
blah-ed by,

Zul's lameness

2009-10-07T20:21:00.000+08:00

Dedicated to my friend and partner in crime in school, who laughs at his own lame jokes,

Z= zorro
s= sorrow
Z= zulfadlee
s= sad story
Z= zebra
s= sissy NOT sexy
Z= zulfadlee
s= SANGAT poser sekali!

n if you're reading this, Zul, HAHA. [see! i'm lame cos you're lame] (:

Once again, 4 amanah did it again by making our class teacher angryy...n out of rage. man! she kinda did sound like she was rapping.

raya + doggy + sunday + (:

2009-10-05T18:50:00.000+08:00

Ookay,
Last raya, it was the first time going to Sha's house and well,[to Sha: I miss your cozy home and foood.oh,and your sister's expensive camera ] sorry.i posted the raya picture soo late.

-Audrey,me,Sha-

Brought Bubbles out yesterday to cut her sharp nails. Then, guess what ??? I got her this:

Don't she look happyyy??

Recently, I mean last sunday, thanks to my sunday school teacher,Uncle Lawrence(yes,i still go sunday school. Mainly cause I enjoy going there while it still lasts.) ,I know about so much stuff that I don't know before especially about the OUTSIDE world. =D
Anyway, he explained to the class about living in truth and also about most of his life experiences. I tell you, you can sit in his class for hours and he can go on and on about his stories and not get bored of it. If there is one thing that I'd admire about him is that, though he did not get top in his class back then or top in the society now, he sure knows how to live life, take control of it and take whatever happens as it comes. I shall remember

~ Anything can happen. Good times will come when you least expect them. ~

>>>> BRING ON the exams!! and the drama competition.
As soon as October ends, I shall D.A.N.C.E ! (:

Sometimes

2009-10-02T14:59:00.000+08:00

♥ ♥ ♥

S O M E T I M E S, when I'M speechless, it doesn't always mean I have nothing to say. . .

Sometimes, it just means I have a lot going through my mind that I can't think of any right words.
Sometimes, not saying anything seems better that way.
Sometimes.... maybe just maybe I use the word, 'sometimes' as a reason to not tell the truth.
SOME TIMES.

(:

. . . Just a thought.

and it starts....

2009-09-28T21:05:00.000+08:00

Again, finalss......so very soon. Just thinking about all the form 5s taking their trials and SPM this year makes me feel so worried for next year. gahh.
Come to think of it, one year goes by so fast.

So many precious moments, experience that i have gone through, people that I meet along the way and joy and sadness that has filled so many hearts. Nevertheless, all i can say is, whoaaaaaa...
I realise 2o10 is so near yet so far.....

The rocky paths that I faced, it has been hard and painful each time I fall.When i fall, it does hurt a lot but it made me come up with other ways to overcome things.
Though the view in front may not always be clear, sometimes, to see is just to listen and believe.
No matter how long the road may be, no matter how many miles and miles it takes, i'll know there's great experiences along the way.
At the end of the day, one thing that makes me wonder is that........ those rocky paths don't actually matter. Thanks to all those troubles, the journey has made it clear that it is actually only a straight path. why make it so complicated?
I guess maybe, i was made for greater things, for a bigger challenge and how far my faith can take me through it.

. . .And i know i'm not walking alone.

[my source of inspiration? footprints in the sand.] (:

Lovin' this song by Leona Lewis. Also, i actually took those pictures during the holiday when i went to damai with my family. teeheeehee~

Anyways, i don't think i'll be able to update anytime soon with exams and drama competition coming up.
^-^
Have a great day,week and months to come!

day out.

2009-09-20T10:50:00.000+08:00

Been a while since I saw Teresa and Mandy. So, we went out yesterday at ze famous, MBO. =]
We watched Final Destination. Kayy...honestly speaking it was a psychophathic movie [as what Teresa would say.] LOL.
Its just not what I had expected. So,yeah.
Hadn't so much fun for quite a long time. We laughed,shouted, crap talk and well, made crazy videos. [ you can see what bored can do to us on facebook (: ]
We hung out at Starbucks and did some catching up. Also, man....the world is sooooooooo small. Well, at least in Kuching that is. familiar faces everywhere. ^-^

Anyway, will try upload some videos here. =D
chow-peppos~

SO GLAD YOU GIRLS COULD MAKE IT.
Even for just a day, it was worth it.

2009-09-18T12:55:00.000+08:00

Darnn.... bro's out,i'm not... I'm stuck at home. Well, brought Bubbles to the vet this morning for her 2nd vaccine.
Finally, holiday season now but sadly, i don't really have any plans. so yeah...
Here is basically how i'm going to spend my holiday :

Extra violin practices
Hanging out with the girls at 'theSpring'.
Sleep,Eat,Grow
Going to the beach in Damai Puri this sunday.
Online
LFC camp next week for 3 days at Mt.Singai.
Playing with Bubbles.
Clean my room
HOMEWORK. [dum..dum..dum]

Thats about it i guess. =D

2009-09-09T17:41:00.000+08:00

ookay,what should i blog about?

OOhh!!! Last sunday was one of the most unforgetable experience. I attended a birthday dinner for Father Chua just outside Blessed Sacrament Church. It was okay until ........ wait, let me describe it in my kind of 'poetic' style =D (its not that good though)

As my dad drove me to church,
I saw pure white canopies,
and as i walked in, an old couple walked past only to smile at me.
The day was breezyy,
There were uncles,aunties and a whole lotta young people,
their hands were all tied up,
making sure everything goes well that special evening.
Indeed, i assure you,it was 'special'. :)
As time draws near to 7.30 pm,
more and more people came.
There were singers,
all the way from singapore and kl to perform.
Laughters and 'happy people' filled the air and seats.
'Ladies and gentlemen,.........' said the amcee.(whatever thats spelt)
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
One dish after another was being served,
I saw people 'fan-ing' themselves,
complaining it was stuffy and warm.
moments later, there was wind, blowing stronger,
and stronger.
Then, i heard droplets of rain fall to the ground,
Before i know it, it was raining heavily.
Altogether with lightnings and thunders.
My mind was caught with the rain.
When i finally came to my senses,
Little children and babies were crying,
what a chaotic situation it was.
As the wind blew stronger,
the canopies were almost blown off.
Uncles, husbands,brothers and even grandfathers hold on to the pillars for support.
Suddenly i heard people shouting,
'Lets move! we can't stay! Go now! ...'
Everyone ran into the church for shelter.
Everyone was freezing and soaking wet.
Everyone panicked.

Yet, all that didn't matter as Father Chua gave a short speech.
Looking at the bright side amisdt all that.
Thinking back, the whole situation actually made us all come together. sung His songs of praise together.

A bucket of blessings from heaven.
~guess thats all i could think of to describe the situation that evening.~

It was great talking to Gerry (local christian singer from PJ) and getting some useful advices on singing old classic songs to making it 'alive' again.

- D SSgang :)

~whenever it rains, there's just something about it.

2009-09-05T21:45:00.000+08:00

Found this the other day in one of my files. Was written 2 years back. [ no idea if it makes sense though. ]

here goes:* takes a deep breath*

Came back home after a long day at school,
Threw my bags, then myself on the bed,
Window was open,
I felt the cool air on my face.
There, I stare at the ceiling,
Slowly, I realised I was drifting away from reality .....
The mild, cooling water rushed against my skin,
A scent of vermouth i tasted;
Soft melody playing like a stereotype continuiously
violins, viola and a cello...a quadruplet.
Clear and bluish green waters, i thought.
Perfect.
Everything was then, still.
Steady.Quiet.
Let alone the waves that was hitting the rocks
below the hills,
suddenly hushed into silence.
Day turned into night,
When the clouds above, moved.
I closed my eyes, breathing in the air,
taking every second of that moment to its fullest.
Reality or not, I wasn't sure either.
An image formed in my head,
Somehow, mesmerizing.
A feeling like never before.
I was freezing but at that time,
it didn't matter.
Neither did i care about those voices i keep hearing,over and over again.
"you're alone now.scared.you know you are.run.RUN."
Then the wind blowed gustly, as if to warn me to listen.
Gushed forth the waters of the ocean.

. . . . . . . . .*ends*

that's all~

Bubbles

2009-09-04T15:44:00.000+08:00

Nana (lil monster sister) : *shouts* Cella!!!! Come down now!!!
Me: what??
Nana: JUST come down NOW!!!
Me: I'm busy!!
Nana: Jie!! come down!! if not, i'll do something evil to you! (she watch too much cartoons)
Me: ISH! finee..!

Then . . . . . . .

. . .
She brought home a puppy last week.

Then i was like............ "OMIGOSH! soo cute! Let me hold the lil guy."
Nana: "Its a girl!"
Me: "No.."
Nana: "if not girl then????!!?"
Me: "female"
=.=

KAYD09 was fun. Being the facilitator was a boo-boo. The food was yummmmy. The concert was great. The people were awesome especially CINDY !! She looked soo excited and smiley ALL THE TIME during the whole KAYD. XD
And thank you Cindy for introducing me with that bracelet thingy..!!!

Yeah,thats about it. ^-^

when parents are out.

2009-08-22T14:52:00.000+08:00

Watched two movies today,' Ghosts of girlfriends past' and ' Blood,the last vampire'. goshh.. the house seems so quiet this whole day without my parents. No nagging bout some little stuffs. No 'parent-children talks'. Never thought i'd actually miss all that in just one day.

Just me and those little monsters around :)

My parents left for kl this morning, leaving me with all the responsibilities of the so-called 'leader of the house' for 5 days. (so much for holidays) Hmm....that reminds me, what to cook for dinner tonight eh? ^-^

*just ignore what is typed here.just some random thoughts. Thats all.*
ithinkineedhelporsomethingcosallidoespeciallywhenitrains,istositandstareoutintotherain.

if only time could stop or at least just slow down for a while.

-Out of ideas to post something again-
sorry

special

2009-08-14T14:52:00.000+08:00

Joan, playing dress-up?

Two days ago, I followed Joan to recycling centre and her mum's workplace which is this place especially for special children.
What's all that for? MORAL PROJECT.
However, before that, Joan's mum brought us out to have lunch. goshh! how i felt sooo 'pai seh' when her mum paid the food for me. (I didn't want to trouble her mum so much.)
It was fun, though and it felt kinda overwhelming that i actually helped out. We folded some donated clothes that people don't use anymore. And what ticks me off was that some people actually donates stuff that CAN'T be use anymore,seriously. For example, Joan found this shirt that actually has holes in it.BIG HOLES. I mean, how is anyone gonna use that?!? gahh.

During the whole afternoon though, while spending time at the 'Pusat Jagaan', I kinda had this sad feeling for those special kids. I mean, to me, they made me realize how lucky i am to have such a comfortable and 'complete' life. It made me think that ....

I shouldn't be demanding for so many materialistic things, knowing that i have a complete, God-given gift to me. But, don't get me wrong. I don't mean those kids aren't complete. They are, actually. I'm just not sure exactly but they just are.
and somehow, they are kinda cute as well. Most of them are older than I am but they are like little kids.

~They get afraid of you if you give them this 'angry' stare.
~They sing random songs which i don't really understand what they are saying.
~They get cranky if they don't get what they want.

They're just special in their own way. . .
. . .so is everybody everywhere

2009-08-13T17:02:00.000+08:00

First of all, I thank God for the rain!!! the weather was darn bad recently. No clouds,no rain. And now, wearing mask at school has become like the 'latest trend' or something because of the haze. Anyway, ......

Edwin and lil sis =D

all in all, the concert was great. =] the rock bands,to me was too much noise *no offence to any party who might felt offended*

YAYY! mummy and daddy bought an amp. ^-^

Hmm...about school today.....
~The usual~

one teacher comes in.
scolds the class (for: the noise, not doing homeworks, bla bla)
another teacher comes in,
same thing happened.
and another teacher comes in,
giving dimerits / sends some of my classmates for counseling or worse, the silent treatment.
*diiing!* Go home. END .

This routine just keeps repeating every single day. =.=

TATa!

received it!

2009-08-05T21:26:00.000+08:00

omigosh! oh my oh my... can't believe i actually received it. See, i was searching around on random stuffs few days ago then i saw this on michael's blog. =D So,i thought, why not? (yes,all thanks goes to michael and eworld! ^-^)

Then,today . . .
lookie here! shiny!

Well, if you love shiny stuff, (like i do) go ahead and check it out. LoOTSA other colourful crystals too. xD

Goshh. I'm gonna be playing in next week's charity concert called Green International Festival. Anyway ,kuchingnites, do come and support. Tickets available, where? click here.

~ Thats about it,peepos!

2009-07-27T13:33:00.000+08:00

I have been advised to be quarantine at home. =.= ah wells. I hate needles. My temperature increased this morning.38 point something degrees,i think. So, I took a blood test.

Prayers would be very much appreciated. (=

OKAY, enough bout that. . . .
Felt kinda bored today so i decided to watch some videos on youtube and i found this. Its soo funny!

Well, i'd better do some studying. ^-^

been skipping school for quite a while now.

Hurrayy!

2009-07-26T17:57:00.000+08:00

We WON the state level! whoo hoo. =D Next stop, Penang. Came back from Betong last friday. So glad to be back though. The place we stay was kinda my worse experience. The inn was just.....can't explain. Its just not a comfortable place to stay in.

As usual,we did a lot of crazy stuff. xD We played 'truth or dare'(somehow it brings back memories) and took a lot of photos.

we dared Alysha to smell Yun Yun's socks.
After coming back from Betong, most of us got sick. I just got fever this morning and well, the doctor said that if i don't get well by tomorrow, i'd have to take a blood test. (goshhh...i'm so scared, seriously)
I realised lately i get sick so easily. == hate it! darnnnn.

Anyway . . .
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY,my dear mummy! and of course, mr Edwin. (=
All this while I never knew my dad is a romantic kind of guy. LOL
He gave my mum a surprise party and a bouquet of flowers.

Audrey, Chloe and I

~ Ta.Ta.For.Now ~

Out of ideas

2009-07-20T20:28:00.000+08:00

Have you ever hear this voices inside your head?
Ones that, well... keep telling you, to do what you feel is right? and sometimes, it just turns out to be the other way around?
It keeps going round my mind. (see what I mean? I think too much lately) =.=
Also, I feel as if i gotta do something but arghh...i don't know what is it.
am i going insane? -i have no idea-

Been missing a lot of stuffs. people. places. food? xD and memories that are like smudged ink that won't fade away.

I remember this essay question few months ago at school. 'The best things in life are....'
I also remember that at that time, I read and re-read the question again and again, thinking...what am I suppose to write about??
I realised, I have no idea what to write. I have the idea, a lot actually but at that moment, I just went blank.
Funny thing is, I gave up thinking of what to write on that particular question and wrote about facts on sports and exercising instead.
*sigh*

~hoping to find whats that 'thing' that i gotta do.soon.~

2009-07-19T19:13:00.000+08:00

Lately i'm been thinking too much.(well,at least I think I have)
Going off soon...well...only for 3 days?
Anyway, this song by Utada Hikaru is soo nice.... to me,at least. =)

SOmetimes, listening to these kind of songs makes me forget about almost everything. A good way to relax and maybe just think about nothing. Honestly, its wayy better than those songs that you hear like ten times in a day?..played over and over again in the radio. Don't get me wrong. Some of the songs are nice but its just too much for me.

Here is another one:

~ t.h.a.t.s..a.l.l..f.o.r..n.o.w~

the pain.....

2009-07-09T18:08:00.000+08:00

Aarghh!! I had stomach-ache and vomited. man! Didn't get sick for quite a while.Food poisoning?Gastric? maybee...darnn! It was soo painful til I can't pay attention during classes today. =.= Well, that fweakin pain started on tuesday and I went to the office to look for my class teacher,Miss Vicky.....and......

Pn.Zuraidah: Eh,Marcella,kenapa muka awak pucat sangat?
Me: Err, yaka?? errm...s-ssaya rasa sakit hari ini.
Pn.Zuraidah: huh?Kenapa??? ada Flu kah??sakit kepala?? (probably she was afraid i was infected with the 'H1N1' thing.)
Me: Tidak, sakit perut teruk.
Pn.Zuraidah: OHHhh.Baiklah. Saya akan telefon ibubapa awak untuk datang. Bawa beg awak dan pergi ke bilik sakit sekarang.
Me: K.

Yeah,thats about it. That was the time when the pain was killing me! Could bearly talk or even walk.
Anyway, i'm feeling a bit better now though. =D

2009-07-08T16:38:00.000+08:00

...3rd place goes to Smk St Joseph,....1st place goes to CADAVER by Random Production from Smk Batu Lintang!
WE WON!!!
goshh... 2 years in a row.(well,i wasn't in last year though)
Whoo hoo!
Well, now we have to get ready for the next drama competition which is somewhere around this month in Betong *soo far awayyy*. Abel got the BEST actor. man,he was soo happy.

Nat and Nabil proudly receive those hampers

O.o look at our 'drama' teacher, Ms.lydia

=D
Here's what we did most of the time in the bus ~

facebook-ing

extremely close frens? err..no comment.Learning History *konon*

>which reminds me,I have a lot of study to catch up on.aaahhh!

T h a t ' s a l l f o r n o w

Got it over with... finally

2009-07-06T18:31:00.000+08:00

(sorry,not many pictures taken)

Drama competition was today. *nervous!!nervous!!nervous-ness!!!!* <<>

Been praticing for a month?or two? Yes, it was kinda last minute but i'm proud to say that we we're actually not that bad. (It could have been real bad due to lack of co-operation during practices) :D
Other schools were not bad either. Man, Smk.Sungai Maong has done a great job.

Whatever happens this wednesday,(results gonna be out then) at least we have tried our very best. We had quite little help for the props but thank God with all the support from everyone, it went well.

To be continued . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

drama rehearsal

2009-07-01T18:57:00.000+08:00

ISH!
Today my whole class went to this talk at a 'teknik' school. me wanna go too!! == Unfair-ness.

well,
WHOAAAAAAA.drama rehearsal this morning was . . . *speechless*
Had about 1 hour drive by bus from our school to Smk Bako...
(darn, Nat's story made me shouted in the bus and got scolded by teacher.hmphh)
Anyway, going there and seeing Mandy, Sasa,mdm.Sally and the others made me MISS my old school soo much. OH MAN, I'd never thought I'd actually have to compete against them.(yeah,this is the saddest part) Too bad I did not get to see them perform. *Attention to all fellow marians of drama team* :D
But,no worries girls, you have my support all the way! ALL THE BEST
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
GOSH,tomorrow is the second preview of the whole, full costume show for the other teachers. Gotta be ready..whoo hoo

-(gonna update more soon)-

still missin' ASC

2009-06-12T16:31:00.000+08:00

'Every move i make in You, every step i take in You ~ '

Not even words can describe how much fun we all had during ASC. Well, the outing day and cultural night was amazing. It was kinda a sad day for me though cause it was the LAST day to be with all the delegates and the LOCs' (local organising committee). Went to Sarawak muzium. and ............. I've never been there although I stay here in Sarawak. =.= (what an embarassment,i know) =D

Anyway, enjoy these pictures ~

merdeka!

Lester xD

~Taize prayer~
In memory of Celestial Joseph who was suppose to come for ASC.
Sophia and D.J
Cultural night!'real men use umbrellas'.
Granddad,father and son? =D
at Watsons, SHOPPING
rightt.... that 'blind' person even have the money to own a camera.
lovee the view.(at the sarawak river)
Chris ,the model wannabe.(with my sunglass) :D
(right)Ha,one of the asian team

fire in the hall!
(right) Angie from Taiwan

Everard and Cecilia(taiwan) PEACE!(from left) me!,Toto and Tui(from Laos)
To all josephians: BE PROUD! of your school bus. xD
my outing group: (left)the singaporeans, John and Elvina.(right) the miri-ans, Elisha and Jeanne.

LASTLY,
our little ASC cat,asco. [I really really hope your not lost or maybe worse]

Your cute little sparkling eyes,
that playful times,
You were with us nearly the whole IYCS,
you're like an ANGEL to all of us.

. . . d i f f e r e n t n a t i o n s u n i t e d a s O N E f a m i l y !!!

* will upload more photos on facebook for all you FB users. [=

how i spent my holidayss

2009-06-08T20:38:00.000+08:00

Had so much fun during ASC. =D Well, it was kinda hectic for the past few days before that but it was soo worth it especially spending my 2 whole weeks holidays. (not that i'm complaining) Met so many delegates from other asian countries. yeeeaahhh
Exposure session was great! All the delegates was divided into 7 groups with 2 guides and not forgetting 1 photographer. So, Lester, Michael and I was assigned to visit N&N farm(organic vegetables farm) and to kampong Baru in Serian. That night was an incredible experience especially staying with a foster family, other than drinking quite an amount of 'tuak'. And,guess what? I got a Laos money!

There are other photos but ...will be putting it up probably soon? :) ASC is still on now but I'm now taking a 2 days off and going back tomorrow night for duty on the 10th.whoo hoo! Going to bring those delegates out for SHOPPING and for a tour around the city and cultural night.
All in all, this was how i spent my holidays and 1 thing that have learned the most out of the sessions is that our earth is suffering from so much crisis and it can only take for how long.the year 2050?or maybe sooner. Also, millions of people out there are suffering from hunger, homeless, and war unlike most of us in this comfort zone.

HOTness

2009-05-30T13:25:00.000+08:00

Wowww...! today was soo hot! like EXTRA hot. =/
Went to St.Lucas centre this morning for cleaning day and preparation for ASC next week. I'll never forget this day when.....Didi,me and some other girls cleaned 4 big rooms and 5 toilets, including the boys bathroom. ughh.. Plus, when we were cleaning the toilet, there was this huge spider. Then, Faith took the hose and spray it. we thought it was dead but it came back alive. wierd eh? gahh... We shouted so loud that one of the guys came inside the toilet and asked what happened. still, it was kinda fun! x)
Hopefully ASC will go smoothly.
Anyway, I just came back from dinner with my dad's friend and family. The little kid was sooo cute! goshh... i can't stop playing with him and the way he talks. I'd say he'll be a great future debater.

~ ~ ~somewhere over the rainbow~ ~ ~

at last

2009-05-29T15:54:00.000+08:00

School ends!!! for now.... x) Add maths today was baddd.. i'm sure to fail again. *sigh*
Anyway, Happy Holidays n Gawai to all of you.
Recently, i think my bro is starting to lovee the camera...

Yeeahhhh.

Abel using make-ups during drama practice. HEHE

(don't really know what to blog about now...half asleep now.havn't had much sleep lately.one of the reasons: exams and ...blabla.)

Can't wait for ASC next week ~ [=

bboorreedd

2009-05-26T17:17:00.001+08:00

I'm suppose to study now. ICT and Maths paper 2 today was, I am proud to say, it was OKAY. Sejarah and Maths tomorrow! ahh wells.... wtheck. Just thought of updating my blog.seems 'dead' lately. GOsh. I soo can't wait til this brain torturing week is overr! :) THEN,i can .............. wait, holidays are coming up but it's just not a holiday. =.=
Am gonna be busy..again.
IYCS thing is next week and drama practice and going back to mum's kampong for Gawai. That reminds me, the only thing I like about Gawai is those fooood and 'drinks'. (not a drinker,mind you)

.... ..... ..... .....i.a.m.b.o.r.e.d.s.o.b.o.r.e.d.

My SEjarah book is right in front of me but I have no mood to study now. Anyway, my class teacher is on her way to deliver her babyyy. hurray! away for two,three or maybe four months? =D Oh,don't get me wrong ..she is a nice teacher except for her moody-ness.(maybe its the pregnant effect...? i dunno)

Lately, I've been missing so much stuffs. Some stuff that I don't even know why I spend so much time thinking.

~more updates coming up after exams.

sports day!

2009-05-09T21:58:00.000+08:00

School's sports day was 2 whole days, last thursday and friday....and my moral teacher asked my class to do this project thingy where we have to do 'kerja amal'. yes,i know..lame..lame... =.= honestly,most of the photos were...see for yourself... ehehe =D Also,for the first time ever,i didn't take part in any event. soo boriinnggg!

Yeaps.guess thats about it..the pictures explains it all. =]
Emerald got 5th place...what a bummer. I must must take part next year!

takes time.

2009-04-29T17:06:00.000+08:00

I can't stop thinkin' about you.

This feelin' just keeps going on...
WHY???
I ask myself every single day.
You walked away,thinking I was okay.
Along you took my heart with you.
The smile on your face is always on my mind.
Wish you knew whats been playing in my head.
You're like a teddybear that a lil' kid just can't let go.

Ain't those words above sounds..hmm..shall i say depressing?emo?
Well,we all do feel that way sometimes. It's just a fact that you need to figure it out on your own...
no matter how long it takes, T-a-k-e--y-o-u-r--t-i-m-e (:
*WARNING*: Try to keep out of emo-ness..seriously =)

2009-04-29T15:31:00.000+08:00

Last sunday,went to Mr.Edwin's rock band concert. It rawked! xD dyerbreed was soo cool!

Mr.Edwin,his band and his rockin' guitar.
Dyerbreed
'Khai'

:) musiciseverything.musicisapassion.musicisforthosewhoappreciateit.

Few weeks ago,my mum signed me up for this audition thingy.(something to do with building up confidence in myself.)Never thought I'd actually agree with her on doing it. ehehe. Been kinda busy lately.The first tryout was soo embarassing cause it was like in front of crowds. gah. Anyway,the results were out @tHe Spring and yeah,didn't get into the finals as I was 'under-age'. hmph. But, it was a great experience especially going through all those interviews. It was worth it. =D

blooms and then,fades away . . .

2009-04-20T16:16:00.000+08:00

Can I stay strong? I dunno.

Can I go on,thinking...you're no longer here? MAybe.
Can I accept it? I have to.
♥ ♥ ♥
One flower blooms and then,fades away
It's time like this when I regreted one thing in my life
You left before I'd even had the chance to say... You mean so much to me.
Truth is,I had the chance but I let it flew away.
Yet,I didn't even wish you,your last birthday..and you left few days after that.
I'm wayy too late now
*sighh*
I miss you,Granddad..so much!!

Continuing daily(well,almost) update: :]

We had to make this 'toycar' for physics. The requirements were to build a toycar that can protect an egg.Lol! my group's egg crack after the first trial. Anyway, yesterday was fun! The night before,went to Annabel's b'day party.
candid =.=
mirror! xD

Congrats,Xing Xing!

2009-04-13T19:26:00.000+08:00

Congrats to aunt Claire who just got confirmed! (:
On the way home,
In the car, . . .

Anyway....Goshh,my easter celebration which was yesterday,was FUN,man! =D

Though,too bad I didn't go for the potluck thingy at church...

Victor's cute friend,Eggie! (:

Went back to mom's kampong to celebrate Easter. (to all BSC community)You know what I saw on the way there?? A 'mini' bsc church! (yes,i know,"still got time to stop by and took a photo of it")
Well,I never knew there is a church somewhere there anyway.
One of the things that I love about going to mom's 'kampong' is
---> the long-distance drive
---> music we listen in the car
---> being with the whole family(not to mention crampss xD)
---> new discovery such as the pictures above
--- > the breath taking views
It looks wayy better live than in a picture ^-^

2009-04-13T14:16:00.000+08:00

Good Friday...Easter Virgil...Easter! [= I think this year's Easter celebration is the best so far. The BSC's sunday school-ers has done a great job with the station of the cross sketch especially Vincent(as Jesus)! =D By the way,Belinda and Alex, great masterpiece on the make-up.hehehe

Look at those breadssss.. xD

one of the 'women of Jerusalem'
the 'guards'

Thank God for the success and for the strength that we all had on that day.Though we were all tired,we fasted the whole day.PTL!
'orang zaman purba' sakai

*For more official photos/news on BSC kids a.k.a SS Gang : (=

www.ssgang-bsc.blogspot.com
http://ssgangbsc.multiply.com

Of course,all thanks goes to the support of . . . . .
~ Fr.Chua
~Parents
~Teachers
~Alexandria Kucha
~many more....~

unselfish-ness

2009-03-30T14:23:00.000+08:00

walaoo...my class teacher asked me to become the assistant class monitor..(can't be selfish anymore.gahh) Well,at first I was suppose to be 'the ketua'.LUCKILY,I did not. I am an irresponsible person,mind you. xD I know it's good especially getting extra marks but if anything goes wrong,i'm gonna get the blame.. And now,I have to worry about the notice board behind the class. The 'hua na sin sey' wants EVERYTHING to be put up by tomorrow early in the morning, that is before lesson starts..grr!
Ahh well, it's Lent season anyway.no complaints.... =D

Gosh,recently my mom actually got addicted with facebook..believe or not.hee.Anyway this video is soo funny..though the person in the video sounds kinda annoying. [:

2009-03-22T22:00:00.000+08:00

Another camp...another camp...I attended this red crescent camp thingy.goshh..it was soo tough! (If your reading this,Wayne,here is my feedback.And,btw,that siren thing was very annoying. :))
Also,we had only like 7 mins to bath n change.gahh...was rushing like mad.aiyoyo.
The camp dance was exciting...and I love the song! ;)
Anyway,it was fun while it lasted.The bad part was waking up VERY early....not sure what time it was cause watches were not allowed during camp but i knw its EARLY! =.=
Today,I feel like a walking zombie and my singing during church service was kinda 'dead'....heh.
Thanks to all the committee anyway for everything during the whole 3 days and for the 'not-so'delicious food' and some of the disgusting game though I did not get to play it.grr... My group got last place for the marching competition. =(
Still,my group got 1st place for the telematch.whoo hoo [:
Whatever,wherever,whenever,we know we can do it! Go,'whatever' team. ^-^

Thats all for now, choww~

2009-03-16T13:32:00.000+08:00

Last thursday,went for this camp thingy,YCS animators formation.Theme:See,Judge,Act. It was AWESOME! =D Well,honestly,at first I thought it was gonna be boring as in listening to talks all day, for 3 days! Then,we were told that it is a 'pen and paper-less' camp. Had so much fun and COFFEE.wow! thanks to Gracy and Claudee,I drank too much and got kinda 'high'. =.= I made the whole table of people laugh like mad especially Grace.gahh...
It was an unforgettable experience I must say.I've learned so many things especially from Bro.John, all the way from Penang that is to Accompany people around us,LIVE life to the fullest, admit my feelings,DON'T judge(never let our 'idea' of people control us) and dare to take risks no matter what others might think.
DAre to Face the 'cross',the pain....everyday.

O.o blurr

Yeahhhh...we played a stick-game,do an experiment of burning leaves and Sleep... [=

heehee ~

D Facilitators for Kayd09 in August

-- Coming soon --

~Proclamamos misericordia, proclamamos amor y paz~

2009-03-13T14:10:00.000+08:00

Whooooo hooo! its over...for now xD
ADD MATHS! is driving me craazayy! =.= im suppose to feel abit down now but i'm feeling the opposite of down...... UP!!! [=

Anyway,recently,I've been thinking what should I do in the near future,as in what should my ambition be?
People around me keep saying stuff like,'You'll regret not taking biology cause it gives u more choices on what you want to be in life'. I mean,sometimes,i just feel like saying 'don't you think I know that?so what?'.
But,honestly,I don't think so.It does not make much difference anyway whether taking bio or being in the science side or which side is it.
It's the hard work and determination on doing something that counts.
Right now,i'm still not sure exactly what I want to be.I'll let the future decide....
but I know I want to continue playing music.. =D
Can't stand without music even for just a whole day ~

=D peace out~

A little story

2009-03-06T13:50:00.000+08:00

This is a story about four people named :
1. Everybody,
2. Somebody,
3. Anybody and
4. Nobody.

There was an important job to be done and Everybody was sure that Somebody would do it.
Anybody could have done it, but Nobody did it.

Somebody got angry about that, because it was Everybody's job.
Everybody thought Anybody could do it but
Nobody realized that Everybody wouldn't do it.

It ended up that Everybody blamed Somebody when Nobody did what
Anybody could have done.

THE END =D

took this on the way to mum's 'kampong' [=

-A--L-i-t-t-e--S-t-o-r-y--J-u-s-t--T-o--M-a-k-e--Y-o-u-r--D-a-y--A--L-i-t-t-l-e--B-r-i-g-h-t-e-r-

...Stayed back in school today just to do my class's notice board before exam,next week.gahh.But I voluntered myself to stayed anyway.Got nothing else better to do.eheh
Pity our class prefect though,our class teacher was like blaming her for almost everything.chills,Jocelyn! :)
During siviks lesson just now,I forgot to bring my textbook.Luckily,that teacher did not realize it.One of my classmate did not bring his book also but teacher asked him ,'where is your book?'. ^-^

Exam is coming up.Time for DOOMS week. =.= study study study

2009-03-05T20:12:00.000+08:00

Some of us think...
holding on makes us stronger,
Sometimes,
it's letting go....
~Hermann hesse~

grr...gotta do bm essay again. =.=
so tired of it.honestly,i don't see why we need to learn it.I mean,it's not like the other half of the world knows the language.gahh...(no offence if somehow any of you out there feel offended)
Anyways,I just finish with another song that i wrote.It's not that good but who cares.. xD
choww