home is indeed where the heart is

Winanga-Li! [I just found out from my college that this word means "memories" in a aboriginal term.]

Between 21 to 23 days, I'd be in my sweet smelling hometown, Kuching! I remember how I'd used to dislike being there for like, my whole life and that there is not many place to go unlike BIG BIG cities in other places. Little did I realise, now.. that other places may be awesome, heaps of excitements and delicious food, nothing beats being home. Being away from home makes me appreciate it more. Come to think of it, it's kind of true about what 'they' say, "You will not appreciate something or even someone until you lose them." Somewhat true..

Anyway, I need to get back on my books. Can't wait for my finals to be over.. then, I'll be back for more updates and of course, new layouts. [I've got a few designs up for editing and hopefully it'll turn out superfantabulous! that is if I don't delay it for much longer.]
 TATA!

when it's festive season, you'll see that cat in a festive outfit as well!

Maslow, the psychologist!

Halfway through college... well, actually.. its nearly the END of college. That was FAST!I've learned quite a lot, i must say especially with my favourite subject! Psychology! Thinking of being a psychologist? I don't know yet...BUT anywho, before I go on to procrastinating (which I really need to stop doing)... ON psychology:

Little note : I've decided that I'd use my blog for a GOOD cause for myself for the time being at least til my finals are over[which is in only 4 weeks time..whoohoo!]. Who knows, my blog would also be of good use to someone out there [educational purpose, perhaps] =D

First off, I realised that according to Maslow's theory of hierarchy of needs, I still need to achieve self- actualisation. What's that? Basically, there's 8 stages, of which is divided into 2 areas of needs: deficiency needs and growth needs. The image shown below is roughly how the hierarchy should look like.



Maslow had a previous initial concetualisation which only include one growth. As can be seen, Maslow states that every human being should aim for 'peak experiences' where we feel at one with the universe and to go beyond limitations of ourselves. Hence, under the deficiency needs, it consists of psychological needs, safety needs, belonging and love, and self-esteem.

PSYSIOLOGICAL NEEDS : hunger, thirst and generally maintaining our well-being is the most important in order to live

SAFETY AND SECURITY : needs such as putting roof over our heads and keeping ourselves from harm and danger.
BELONGING AND LOVE : the feeling of being accepted by others and to develop close relationships.
ESTEEM : To have respect from others which involves being competent, gaining approval and recognition.

At higher level, upon fulfilling the deficiency needs, one would need to achieve and strive towards the growth needs which consists of understanding, aesthetic, self-actualisation and transcendence.

UNDERSTANDING : the need to know and understand

AESTHETIC : the need for aesthetic beauty

SELF-ACTUALISATION : Realising one's own potential, embrace the realities of the world (including themselves) rather than avoiding them. This also includes being creative, interested in solving problems, judge others without prejudiceand generally appreciate life.

TRANSCENDENCE : After achieving self-actualisation, a person can then try to achieve transcendence which is to help others to achieve their full potential.

interesting, no? That Maslow came up with such hierarchy which is somehow of 'general' thinking but somewhat, unique and of his own prespective whereby his theory is based on his statement that every human nature is good as every person's goal is to self-actualise and transcendence. Thus, this also shows the limitation of the theory. Maslow's theory is too focused only on a healthy personality resulting in assumption that everyone is good and does not take into consideration of any bad behaviour. In relation to that, the theory seems to be stagnant and stable over time and situation which also means that everyone's personality does not develop or even change through the years? . . . . something to think about.

That's all for Maslow's theory! :)

*All information has been revised and summarized through SAM psychology textbook and lecture notes based on HUMANISTIC conception of personality.

TATA~

A okay

all you can do is smile and Thank Him for every single day.

a change, not for once but always

HI there, you gorgeous! yes YOU, gorgeous page! I miss you, bloggyyy!! xD

It's been exactly one month and five days since that day when I had to leave most things behind me. Not to mention, my comfort zone, my little 'heaven' and for lack of better words, my safe shelter, althogether. I know, i've been strong but lately, i know i've been stumbling as well.

Even before I could learn to walk, i'm already running. :'(

That's how I'm feeling right now.

There's no turning back. No place where I could hide anymore. Maybe, in times like this, death seems more like a peaceful place. Then again, where's the adventure??
So far, college has been GREAT. I'd never thought it could be real fun as what others have told me. Now that i've experienced it for myself, indeed... It's one HEAVEN of an awesome ride!! New friends that I've met so far are only part of those few whom I'm going to meet soon. =)
I have to admit that yes, i've gotten into trouble and I am tired of having to go through it over and over again BUT through all the trouble and mistakes, I learned and not tired of learning still.
Through every mistakes, I will change and I will never be the same as I was yesterday. I change and I accept every downfall.

I'd never thought i'd take addmaths after high school but here I am, sitting here, enjoying my college maths work which is no difference than addmaths back then.

TO MY LOVELY LIL BROTHA,back home :

No matter what they may say,
I know you sing well, you always do!!
I admire you for the courage you have to even sing a duet piece on stage.
(to me, the stage has always been a place when there's so much freedom. Now that drama is no longer what i can do in college, I do miss performing.)
I don't say it JUST because you're my brother but it's true! I wish I could be there,cheering you on and watching you perform but well, you know I'd love to be there.
As I'm typing this, you know whats been going on in my mind?
You.. OH how i miss talking craps and disturbing you! Actually, it's much more than that, I miss how you'd know when i'm down and come listen to me even when you don't want to. You've always been like that. Nearly, always more than just my younger brother to me - more like a best friend. It just isn't the same here. Anyway, don't feel frustrated with anything, alright? and by the way, PLEASE do call me sometime.

Also, Nana, I miss your talkativeness.xD

with much love,
your sister,Cella.

Tata~
as much as i miss you, bloggy, i can't promise when exactly will i be updating anytime soon.

at cross roads

Gary.
A short,chubby kid, flushed with pink cheeks almost like a little girl's. He's not like many. In fact, he's always had a maturity that was not really what most people would aspect of him.[Well,that's another story.]
This year, he's turning 18.
One afternoon, he was lying on his bed, thinking that as soon as he step out of the house, he know it'll never be the same again. It never occured to him that this day would come when all this while, this day seems to take forever.
And then it hit him that he was going to have to make a decision that would somehow shape his whole future ahead of him.
Though, he always tell himself,"it's all about the risk."
But at this point, he is not even sure anymore if the risk he is about to take is going to be worth it. Too much- this is too much for him, he thought to himself again and again.
See, Gary has always been afraid to stand up for himself or even to speak to anyone for that matter. In short, he was a shy boy. Now, all that is going to have to change for Gary since turning 18 would mean turning into an adult. He would have to leave home and he knows that he is going further and even further away when the time comes.
His friends? Well, he don't have much to keep in touch with. Mostly, aquaintances you would say. He realizes, he's alone now. He has always been but the fact that worldly things kept taking charge of him, he never did. Hence, he should be able to handle this, he thought again. He should have gotten used to being alone a long time ago. One thing led to another and his thinking became more like confusions and deeper longing of wanting to know what's next.
Still in his mind, he got up and went to sit near the window, looking up into the sky from the balcony. He closed his eyes and inhaled the fresh scent of his mother's freshly planted flowers outside in the garden. This moment- is a moment that he'll never give back. He tilted his head to the side and looked back up. If he could have one chance of being able to see the future, he know he wouldn't because he wanted to keep that as a surprise, whether or not it's bad or good. IT IS going to be worth the risk, indeed. Then, he smiled.

So, what's next for me? I'll have to find out own my own.
As been said, A man determines his own battle. I have mine.