saya cinta Kuching.

what if?? sighh..... my dad just told my sister and I that he might want to do his job at kl because a certain somebody asked him to open a business there. >.<
i love kuching. It may not be a big city like OVER there but its comfortable here. I have just what I need here, not all but just enough. Then again, I know it's not that far from here but still, its across the ocean. So, i'm just thinking what if he does decide to take it. Still no idea about it though.

thisjustprovesthatieasilyworryaboutstuffsthatireallydonhavetoworryabout.i'llsoongetoldfaster!ohnooooo
(if you can read the sentence above, You Are amazing.)

I'm suppose to be studying right now but yeah, i'm taking time off a bit to procrastinate and to let out the whole idea of my dad's work thing. (: and and my mind is not here. gosh. I've been reading and re-reading the same page over again and again... I have really lost my mind.

i get so excited everytime you call,
i get hyper everytime you're near me,
i get lame everytime you get lame,
i get so happy everytime i see you,
so, i'd say 'i'm stuck to you.' you'd say,'i know you are.'
i get sweeter everytime because you are too.

callmelameyouaretoo

i guess i'd better get on with my dear Physics. Tata!
the condition for halogenation is U.V light/rays. heeee... me love chemistry.

sunshine, You shine my cloudy day. or even better, U.V light, you 'U.V my day' (=

Had family din-din yesterday to celebrate my cousin's grandpa, which is my grandpa's cousin. [it's kinda complicated. And one of the things that I don't really like is that us,children, we need to call each one of the adults. Problem is, I always get mixed up on what to call who. According the chinese custom, it is rude to not call them. so,yeah.... ]
It was really sweet of my cousin to say a short speech to his granddad... it goes like,'although he may be old, but he is like a kid at times because he buys junk food for all of us. That's why we love you, grandpa.'

And here's Lerena~ she cried after her brother bit off this 'carrot-tower'.


I know I haven't been updating much lately. As you all know, cella is trying to resist the temptation of going online often. I'm not if that's working well but I think it is....a bit.

OH! We sent our little bubbles for grooming.. and here's how she look now....

:)

To all brothers n sisters,
HaPpy EASTER!!

His eyes

As he held my hand, i felt Him.
As he looked into my eyes, i felt Him.
As he spoke, i felt Him.

confession. i killed somebody few days ago Everytime whevener i stepped into the confessional room or even just sitting outside waiting for my turn, the feeling of ,'urgh... so embarassingla wanna tell all my sins.I'm a bad girl! >.< ' is always there. But just now, I was so calm... no nervous-ness or whatsoever. =D One thing that i've ,in a way, learnt today while going for confession is that there is no need to fear or be embarass about, although we may be confessing to a priest but truth behind it is that we're actually facing Him in the confessional room. Just like the story of the Prodigal Son. His father accepted him back although he rebelled against him before. [ okay, now i sound as if i'm preaching. teehee...] Well, I'm just glad and relieved that I skipped my tuition tonight and went for it. OH OH! after exams, i've decided that I'll......................... love addmaths love chemistry love english love bahasa malaysia love physics love maths love moral and most of all, LOVE sejarah. ♥ Let the world be filled with love. ♥ ~To do something or to succeed at something, you have to love doing it~ [not sure how true is this but i'm gonna do an experiment on this.] ~Changing your face isn't gonna make any difference but Facing the change is gonna make so much difference~ -unknown.

ttfn~

Bad day go away, come again ...eh no,if can, never come again.

I have no idea why but today seems like a bad day i've ever had in a long time. Some may call it ..hmm... 'ahh,its normal' . But for others, who knows me, bad days are like once in a blue moon. For goodness sakes, i don't even feel like smiling right now. gahhh..
This morning when I reached school, everything was still okay. Then, going through the day, so many stuffs has been bothering my head. [to Jocelyn and Joan, i'm sorry you both had to see me being so the EMO today. gosh]
I'll name a few that happen. It all started when a teacher came into my class and called me out. Then, she told me the funds money were all gone. ALL 1K plus gone except rm61 ringgit. [YES, that time my heart crushed and my head started to hurt a lot. And and, i just felt so hopeless.] Before that, which was last saturday, I had already passed the money to the teacher who was suppose to be in-charge of the club. I HAD witness. And so, everyone told me it wasn't my fault. But how can i not help to feel that it was all my fault that it's gone. TOTALLY GONE. I felt so depressed that I could'nt concentrate much today especially with so much mixture of feelings. Guilt, Sad, Angry, Depress and all negative energy filling inside me. BUT, i stayed back today to go see the teachers and they told me, they found where the money is already. I felt soo RELIEVED. GOSH! what a day right?
Even while receiving Sejarah paper today, I was soo soo [no need to mention la.heh.inside story.]
To make things worse, these pair of guys behind me was getting on to my nerves. They talk and talk and talk non-stop. [probably because I was so disturbed that I realize that they're really irritating in some ways.] However, thank God I was still in my cool mode. OH OH, and just now, during tuition, I just keep looking at the time, hoping to get home as soon as possible cause I just totally can't concentrate. See how little stuff can affect my mind. sheessshh, i hate it when that happens. 2 hours of tuition wasted....but i did do my work though. (=

I guess, bad days come and go and same goes with happy days. Gah, i just wish all these hadn't happen at once in a day. IT's KILLING ME to handle it all at a time. Then again, people say things don't just happen because it happen, it happen cause there is a reason behind it. =/
Well then, I guess I really need strength from above to keep strong.
It's kinda late now to actually blog but I'm still not feeling better. So, I thought i'd pour out everything in here. Not everything la but most of it.
One thing that I love bout blogs, papers, journal, diary[not that i keep one] or whatever, is that I can write whatever, whenever,whoever I want in there and just throw all my crappyness in it. AND NOBODY willl say a thing back. Maybe there is but who cares. Its my page, and it's all mine. And you know, it actually works to make myself feel lighter and smilier again.
Just a little story to share with my dear blog here,
when I was still a kid, i STILL am now
I used to write all my problems or my day in school or even at home.
For example, I got scolded by my parents. And so, I'd write it on a piece of paper all that i want to say or wish to say it out loud but i can't. After that, I'd re-read what I wrote and tear it all into small pieces. Mind you, IT FELT REALLY GOOD! and I wasn't angry that much anymore. As I grew, I started keeping a journal [NOT a diary] and I'd write down about friends or complain about loads of stuff in it.

Whoa, I did not even realized that i've typed so much in here... hehe

:)
Whatever happens, I'll stay strong. Whatever happens, I'll just close my eyes and tell myself, *starts singing Bob Marley's song* 'Don't worry about a thing, cos' every little thing is gonna be alright...'

Goodnight bloggy~
til then.

Like I am...

Cousins, uncles, aunties have all gone back kl yesterday. Its always like this. sigh.. once they leave or anyone leave for that matter, there's always this empty feeling. gahh! [it's not like they're not coming back.] Anyway, we gambled yesterday and it was soo FUN!! My lil cousin won the most and he was soo excited that he want to play it over and over again. xD

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i.seriously.wish.i.could.make.time.slow.down.
A song dedicated to everyone whom I love so much! and those who love me like I am: love it. love all whom i love. (: this song pretty much reflects on daddy God who just loves me unconditionally. He shows it all the time...through others...others like you all.

Lying here with you
I watch you while you sleep
The dawn is closing in
With every breath you breathe

I can feel the change
The change you've made in me
But will I ever see
All the things you see in me

Chorus
When you say that I'm one of a kind
Baby, I don't see it but you believe
That I'm so strong and true, I promise you
I'll try to be that kind of man human =D
Because you love me like I am

When it comes to love
I may not know the rules
But there's one thing I know
My heart belongs to you, just you

(Repeat Chorus)

You show me you love me
With a fire that burns deep inside

(Repeat Chorus Twice)

- I am
I'll never understand
I don't think I'll ever understand
Why you love me
Why you love me just like I am

~♥~end~♥~

cny

Done with Chinese New Year.... what's next? Chap Goh meh? Anyhow, I guess festive season is nearly the ONLY time we get to be together with our family and relatives. I just wish I could keep EVERYONE with me ALL THE TIME.. Then, I wouldn't have to miss them so much. [i know that's impossible laa] Oh oh, probably, that's why
This year, for mine, it feels different without grandpa around. more quiet, I must say. gosh. I MISS HIM so much! And if I miss him this much, my grandma must miss him so much more. =/

Pictures speaks more than words right? [more on FB] (: Here's some captured memories that I shall forever keep.. I think,someday, I'll print out what I write in here and re-read it when i'm much older. It'll be something that may bring smiles later on...

Pre-CNY + Valentine's Day eve + Uncle's birthday eve + Verne's Birthday = whoaaa!

before......

after.....

2nd Day

OH ya! we gambled too....with muffins or cupcakes,i think... cos' we were too kiasu to use real money. (:

3rd day

When I saw this, i was like 'Oo...are they serving salty eggs??' Then i found out it was jellys. x)

My uncle said that the screen and projector is to save space and money, so he do not need to buy a TV to put in that living room. O.o

I must say my CNY was great. Not to mention increasing of $$$ and also increasing of weight! oh goshh!

I guess probably while looking through those pictures, some may think 'whoaa..these people do takes loads of photos.. >.<'

Vain? yesss! we ALL are.heee

*the connection nowadays so BAD! gahh!* Time is so limited as well. As much as i want to continue blogging, there is always something coming up.
til then~ tata!

c-n-y

CNY is almost here! =D not to mention Valentine's day! spread the love,people... heeeee
It's been few days now that my family and I had gone shopping and well, preparing for the coming occasion. And gosh, my mum has been busy ordering food and drinks here and there. I think it's a bit too much just for one occasion,no? Anyway,here is my dad, pretending to play starwars with that vegee. =.=
Oh oh! and while we were shopping, there's this lil kid, who looked so tired but so cute! xD I can't help but to take a photo of him. [See, i bet he got VERY tired following his parents shopping]

I.feel.as.if.everybody's.leaving.
=(
okay...i know it's a phase where most people is leaving to further studies and all BUT it's happening so fast! i'm not ready for all that for goodness sakes!!! TIME, please please slow down. For,soon, it'll be my turn.
gosh,i just realised exam is like so soon as well. I have to get my brain, armour, sword and my machine gun ready for it.
Brain = to think. [duh]
Armour = Just to keep it safe.
Sword = To cut-cut and go through shortcuts
Machine Gun = To shoot questions

lame? i know.bear with me, if you readers wanna continue on reading.
p/s: it makes blogging more meaningful that people actually reads what others writes in their blogs.